How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

[goingonhope]

heck'of'a morning.......did get a brief nap, ......witching hrs. passed better than usual......went in support of the tenor saxoph., to a dynamite jazz perform. tonight with husb and enjoyed it very much.......also did make it into school yest. as lunch mother and that there success felt enormous to me given some of the intrusive crummy memories I'm wading through almost daily these days.

 

[Deleted member 93]

was getting my fever down to 102 today at least... Now I can barely keep it down to just over 103. I am pissed off about shit at home, sick, and I need to be ready for my son's flight coming in tomorrow/today. I am wiped out but I am in such a foul mood wondering if feeling so ill I am likely to throw something at hubs making me worse and at 2 AM he may not like it... Still think he has it coming in a big way... God I feel like I am gonna puke and hurt. I hate this shit.


ETA... Is it reasonable to say I feel like I am dying right now? I think have a cold but not snotty... flu? who the hell knows. How do I rest?

 

[cookie]

i'm sorry you're sick, veiled. are you taking ibuprofen for the fever? drinking LOTS of fluids. it really will help flush the virus out of your system faster. i hope it's not the flu. praying for you, i know you want to enjoy your son's visit.

hey grass, i had trouble getting anything to help me sleep, not even ambien, etc. much to my surprise, unisom helped me to get to sleep without making me a zombie the next day. worth a try, and over the counter. do a drug interaction screen with it and your meds, first, though.
cathy

 

[Deleted member 93]

Many thanks, Cathy. Need more prayers for the following, not for me but my family.

Today I have very little recall of. I remember feeling like I was high as I could get, so dizzy. Been taking Motrin every few hours for the fever. I woke up to it just over 104.

Not sure if Motrin and xanax was making me so high feeling or the fever and attacks.

My MIL showed up and she has always been very careful of my space but not today. I was too ill. She came in my house and sat with me until others showed, either my son or my husband. I was horrified, my house was a wreck, she had never seen me without my face on, hair sticking up all over, pale and Well not sure what looked worse, me or the house. I just could not clean.

She took the kids shopping and I said you need to not spoil them so much, you have 3 grand babies moving up here in a couple years and need to save some for them. Then I got the most heart breaking news...

Some of you knew my SIL was having issues with her pregnancy, baby had issues. Thought the baby would make it. She said my husband did not tell me? The baby died. They have the child in an urn now trying to decide where to move on from there... Oh I feel so much for her, my heart breaks. I got after hubs that he cannot keep me in a bubble, but he said he did not think I could handle it. Shit like I am not going to find out??

My son showed up for a brighter side and I feel so whole having him in my home sleeping and playing so much with his little sister and big bro. He is here and I still miss him.

My MIL grabbed me and gave me a big hug and said I needed it and she did not care if she caught the flu too. She seems convinced that is what I have. I hate trying not to have too much contact with my son as he gets everything and always catches anything in the air. So close but I cannot love all over him like I wanted.

I may pop in for updates of my day but will not be editing as i am just too damn sick and nothing makes sense to me right now to help. Plus I will be spending time with my son as much as I can.

Why do I feel so flipping high??? After 4 Motrins I did get it down to 100.5 for about and hour but seems to be hanging at 103. This shit blows...

Hope everyone else is doing well and will see y'all in a few days if the computer that is frying is still working.

 

[YoungAndAngry]

They were holding casting calls for the dog in the 'Oliver' play.
After seeing a pic of my dog, we were asked to come to the final audition.
(they already had done the casting calls and cuttings)

It was fun,
and I was so impressed with watching Mr. Bear on stage with the trainer.
He picked up on things immediatly and was showing off :)

In a way, I really hope he doesn't get the part,
because being around crowds make me uncomfortable.
I wouldn't be on stage, nor have any part in the production,
but I would have to drop him off at the theatre, and traffic is scary.

I'm not going to jinx his chances...
as I'm sure he'd be the perfect dog for the role.

I read the info wrong, so we were there an hour early....
Just got home... time to try and chill

 

[wildfirewildone]

:sleep: I've been resting a lot today as I am in the throes of a nasty chest cold...I went to my medical doctor Friday and she put me on an antibiotic and another cold medicine to break up the congestion....There was another med she prescribed but my drug insurance plan doesn't cover it....it was only $76 so I couldn't get that!!![ :cussing: Stupid government drug plans!! Before I had no trouble getting the meds I needed without any $$ investment at all!!] It was mostly for if the coughing got too bad....so far it's not been bad though I am very uncomfortable....It was a good thing I got to the doc's the day after I started coming down with it.....I have a sweet heart of a med doc so I never hesitate to go and get something taken care of.....I have to be careful when it comes to getting a cold as it descends to my chest real quick and I have ended up in the past with bronchitis or pneumonia which ended me up in the hospital....I would hate to have seen what it would have been if I hadn't gone to see her real quick!! I wasn't able to get to mass this evening and I really miss it but it's best for me to give my body the rest it needs and also not to be passing out germs to other people.... KEEPING THE PEACE

 

[kers]

I hope you feel better soon, wildfire!

I'm sick, too. Had a cold for a week but it doesn't seem to be letting go. It was in my chest yesterday and I was afraid I'd have to go to the ER for my asthma, but today I'm a bit better.

I plan on sitting on my bum and watching the first season of The West Wing on DVD today. Happiness!

 

[YoungAndAngry]

I just had a sleepathon,
went to bed early (10 p.m.) and wouldn't wake up till after 5p.m. today.
Depressed ever since my appointment with the surgeon.

 

[goingonhope]

:sleep: I've been resting a lot today as I am in the throes of a nasty chest cold...

Wildfire..Wildone, Hope you get to feeling better soon and the chest cold passes. ...Oh' how I know how uncomfortable, nasty and sometimes long-lived, that they can be. I had one in Jan./Feb., that the cough didn't let up for weeks.

Wishing you well Wildfire, and soon, ....hopefully, a quick recovery for you !

 

[goingonhope]

:smile: Warm enough to get outside with my son and play.

Also, thouroughly cleaned bedroom.....not a speck of dust left. F-I-L and his wife, will fly in and arrive on Tues. morning. They'll being staying with us for about a week and my husb. and I will be giving up our room, as the guestroom.......while husb. sleeps in bunks with son, and I get to sleep in daughters room.

Not sure how well, I'll cope this week....just not sure yet. Also, won't be able to come on forum nearly as much, as I'm a private person and don't really want ext. family knowing much about me. They'll be out of the house alot though, and besides I haven't had nearly enough time on the forum lately to read and get involved as I'd like.

I have though been making some huge progress, and some not so huge, but progress none-the-less. Have over a week away from a cigg., and so does my husb., that equals about $100. bucks in monies not spent. Between him and I we had gone practically insane on spending for cigg's, over the last couple yrs. Out of control at about 4.35 to 5.78 a pck. I know it's an absolute shame, and I wish I could've done it differently, but need to let go' and forgive us, but do, for the time being, feel like a million bucks not being out of control spending for cigg's.

Kids back to school tommorrow. Mon. are our busiest, most difficult day, and I'm going to need some sleep shortly.

:sleep: ...:sleep: ...:sleep: ...:sleep: ...

YoungAndAngry, Maybe, I'll dream of having a sleep'a'thon, tonight, while I sleep, and get the same results as you, just by virtue of having dreamt it, bc ....WOW! ..All that sleep sound IN-CRED-I-BLE ! I remember, having done the same too, in the past, I just haven't for yrs., and I miss it. Take Care Y&A.

 

[Deleted member 93]

Sorry not on top of things here. Last night I BBQed and well it was a mess... I got so confused. My in laws, my family, and my ex husband over while I am running fever... Need I say more? MIL pointed out my oil in the house I forgot was smoking so almost a grease fire.

I have to get to bed as tomorrow is my last full day with my son and we are going to the zoo. Woke up middle of the night in panic and scrubbed the house so hey a bright side except I have to admit xanax is like pez the last couple days.

I had a bad blowup (kids are asses at times) but I ran off too my room instead and locked the door and turned on the radio really loud, a few hours later I was better.

My ex made me drive around town and learn my way around. Not all bad I guess but he refuses to let me stay in my box. Showed me land marks not to get lost. I am pooped.

Oh, but I have tulips and other flowers coming up and already blooming at amazing rates since the snow is gone. It is nice... I go out one day to see green and then boom flowers. Spring!

I am so scared of crashing when things get "normal". Hubs putting MIL on alert.

 

[GR-ass]

Thanks for that Cathy, will have to look into it once I get paid again.

Still not steeping too well. Been so nervy today, shaking and throwing up. Is the worst day I've had in a while.

Now I just feel like I've distanced myself again. Its like everything is fuzzy and I just can't give a shit about nothing.

Having bad thoughts again. Think I may clean tonigh t till I'm exhausted. Just don't trust myself around me. Feel like ringing Luke only I don't want to seem clingy. Just want to be able to say hey, I can get through a the weekdays alone.

Gacks, if only I didn't feel like vomiting.

Parents decided to take me and brother dearest out to dinner. *grrrs* I ate maybe a couple mouthfulls of soup and a couple of prawns before I lost it. spent 3/4 of an hour in the loo trying not to loose what little I ate. I hate this.
Feck, I told them I didn't want togog out. why do i let them bully me into it, guilt me into it? i mean hell, I'm almost 23, I should be able to say to them no, I don't fecking want to go out to a resturant and eat with the dickhead who abused me for ten years. No I don't want to be in public and try not to panic.

Hell, I was going so well with the panic attacks. Now I feel like I've gone back ten steps.

Grrrs a part of me wants to cut, wants to feel that pain, watch me bleed. I know it'll make me feel better, at least for a while I know it'd make me calmer, make me feel clear.

Just like any other addiction. Hell, is there a 12 step program for SH? Feel like standing up some times and saying

Hi, I'm cassandra, I have an addiction.

Almost feel like drugs would be an easier habit to kick. Can't take every sharp object, everything that causes heat away from me.

Ilook at my arm like i'm in a dream some times. I just want it togo away and yet still think it apt that it mimics the pain I keep inside.

God i am so full of shit.