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holding on.
It has been a month since my ex and I have separated and about two months since my aunt passed away. Tonight is one of those nights when I feel excruciating loneliness and fear because of flashing back to when I was alone and scared as a child. All I want to do is hold my ex but it can't happen. Thinking about my aunt no longer being around to talk to when I am scared is very painful. I want my mother here with me but that can't happen either. I have allowed myself to grieve and cry off and on for the last hour and haven't done anything self defeating so it can be considered a victory. I believe God and everyone else who has passed on is with me in spirit but it doesn't change the fact that I want to be held. Can anyone please talk to me for a bit to help me get through the rest of the evening? I tried calling my sponsor but he is unavailable.
