@brokenEMT - you have had two separate and independent diagnosis of PTSD.
Just bc someone who is paid to get you off their case-load tweaks a situation you have lived with for over 1000 days doesn't mean you or anyone else did not acquire PTSD as a result of that belief.
The damage cannot be undone once it is done. The cup spilled over at some point after you were told your partner had committed suicide.
You did not imagine a story about suicide - you were told this. You cannot undo the way you acquired this information and the flow on effects that resulted.
if I can't prove she was a suicide, among all the other shit they want me to prove
You do not have to present them with anymore then the
facts you were given with at the time your partner died.
At some stage you were confronted with the
loss of your partner and told it was suicide. It doesn't matter who comes along later and wants to correct the manner of death or even if it was not suicide...you still suffered shock & trauma which unfortunately resulted in PTSD.
Your partner is still deceased that cannot be undone. You still suffer the grief and loss of your partner with the nexus being your work
and any other work related trauma that has occurred over your career - none of that can be undone.
I get what they are saying to you. No suicide so everything is sweet...off you trot. No! It doesn't work that way. You can only process and deal with information you are given at the time you are given it. You cannot undo loss, grief etc regardless of how it comes about.
Public records should be accessible for you to find a cause of death. I would not pay a attorney to find this. I am assuming any unnatural death (suicide is deemed to be unnatural) - there would have been a coroner's investigation of some sort or at least a police enquiry. I don't know how the system works for you there. In any case I would be contacting the local police department in your area and asking them - (do it in person if necessary) - tell them who you are & how you are connected to your partner and would the officer who prepared the coroner's brief please tell you cause of death. But do it quietly and calmly. Just for your own information - not to prove anything to your workers comp.
The thing is - even though I know this is doing your head in
@brokenEMT - are they suggesting your partner died of natural causes? Are they suggesting your partner was murdered? Any way you look at it you are still suffering the tragic loss of your partner with whom you worked and were told I presume, by a credible source you had no reason to disbelieve, that it was a suicide and possibly work related suicide.
None of your facts have changed. Even if 'they' want to re-invent the wheel you will still know what the old wheel looked & felt like. You cannot undo this. Nor can they.
You are not cannon fodder to your workers comp's latest financial bottom line. You need legal representation bc they are going to be constantly reviewing your fitness for duty and trying to crack you one way or another. They are exacerbating your injury - PTSD.
As other's have said they are just bastards with not one humane bone. A legal rep. might suggest an independent evaluation. Have you been before a medical/psychiatric board before?
