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(If anyone saw the 1st post, this is the update)
Surprisingly, I've been diagnosed with OCD, GAD, PTSD, and depression at the same time. It is exhausting, and traumatic, too. Although, there is these trauma I can't get over with. I cannot get over how my parents neglect me without me even knowing and how they used to make me starved, vulnerable, etc. I've find this out and I don't know how did I not remember this, I probably blocked it out of my mind. This also makes me had non contact COCSA with my 2 neighborhood. It upsets me a lot to find out the fact I also got sexually abused by an older men that I don't even know. I can't remember much of it, it's a blur. I want to remember it, but it's very blur and I don't want to form any false memory either. Bad news is that the men that sexually abused me is still walking in this earth, but I can't be angry at him for no reason.
I can't believe how many trauma's I have, especially that I've blocked it out for years and years. I can't remember much of it, and it upsets me a lot. I realized this might be the outcome of the abuses I've encountered. I've cut contact from my parents and my families, although I still spend times with my brother.
I'm so glad I've found this forum, as I finally can talk about everything that happened to me. But seriously, i still can't get over the traumas that I've found out.
For those who wants to share their stories, feel free to share it in this post. We can share our experiences and giving supports. And for those who already encountered or encountering an abuse (physical, mental, emotional, finances, sexual, domestic), know that you are strong, and you are so brave to share your story. Feel free to share your experience in this post :)
Surprisingly, I've been diagnosed with OCD, GAD, PTSD, and depression at the same time. It is exhausting, and traumatic, too. Although, there is these trauma I can't get over with. I cannot get over how my parents neglect me without me even knowing and how they used to make me starved, vulnerable, etc. I've find this out and I don't know how did I not remember this, I probably blocked it out of my mind. This also makes me had non contact COCSA with my 2 neighborhood. It upsets me a lot to find out the fact I also got sexually abused by an older men that I don't even know. I can't remember much of it, it's a blur. I want to remember it, but it's very blur and I don't want to form any false memory either. Bad news is that the men that sexually abused me is still walking in this earth, but I can't be angry at him for no reason.
I can't believe how many trauma's I have, especially that I've blocked it out for years and years. I can't remember much of it, and it upsets me a lot. I realized this might be the outcome of the abuses I've encountered. I've cut contact from my parents and my families, although I still spend times with my brother.
I'm so glad I've found this forum, as I finally can talk about everything that happened to me. But seriously, i still can't get over the traumas that I've found out.
For those who wants to share their stories, feel free to share it in this post. We can share our experiences and giving supports. And for those who already encountered or encountering an abuse (physical, mental, emotional, finances, sexual, domestic), know that you are strong, and you are so brave to share your story. Feel free to share your experience in this post :)
