Sexual Assault I Can't Go To Physical Therapy.

[Superpajamagirl]

I can't do it I can't go to
Physical therapy for my pelvic floor dysfunction. I've already gone 3 times, and the physical therapy involves the therapist going inside my vagina. And it triggers me everytime I go, and I want to talk to my other therapist about this but I am too ashamed and afraid he'll ask personal questions. I have been lying to him about it telling him I am fine when really I am not. I don't like being touched down there and I feel deep shame and embarrassment when my physical therapist does this and I tend to dissociate and flashback to my rape when I was three. Should I talk to my therapist about this. Tell him how I really feel about it? I know I have to go to my physical therapy, and I will go but I don't want to remember everytime.

 

[Deleted member 34424]

You need to tell your therapist and even your physical therapist about what happened because though it's scary, it can cause way more problems in the future. It's already causing issues now, mentally and physically.

 

[EveHarrington]

Id be beyond shocked if a physical therapist wasn't trained on how to handle situations like this.

The therapist can't help you unless you let him know what's going on.

 

[Killashandra]

As hard as is it it would be better if your PT is informed of the basics that way they can accommodate you. After all its about you that your there for therapy. Just say I have ptsd and I'm uncomfortable with this procedure. But then its easy for me to say. I know as we all do here its so much harder to put it into practise.
Care for yourself and do what you need to. Be gentle and forgiving to yourself.
All the best
Killa

 

[NoWhereKnowWhere]

That must be so horrible to deal with. I can't even imagine, I'm so sorry you are going through this. Yes I think you should talk to your therapist about this. Does your PT know about the past trauma and your ptsd? If not you should tell them if you can. If it's difficult to say you could try writing it in a note and giving it to them (therapist and physical therapist). Maybe if your PT knew (if they don't) there could be a different approach they could try. If you can only speak to your T about it maybe he could contact your PT and explain.

You don't have to do anything you don't want to. This could be re-traumatising for you. If you can't deal with this right now then maybe you need to postpone your PT until you are. try again at a later time with the internal PT until you work through some of this and mentally ready yourself with your T. If it's too embarrassing to talk to your T do you think getting a female T might be beneficial?