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I Can't Stop Thing About My Childhood ..

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(((Grim))) I am glad you are good today. I too hope the feeling good lasts a long, long time:).

I hope this post does not disturb you in any way. I was not sure whether to write it or not.

I am so sorry to hear that you were abused by a person who was trusted to look after children. Your story is close to my heart because my ex, who I was married to for 23 years, was abused by his grandmother when he was 8 years old. She was a schoolteacher who taught infants. He could not understand how anyone, let alone someone in a position of trust, could be inappropriate in such a way with a child. His parents are dead now but he too has unanswered questions of whether she abused his father or the boys in her class. He was very angry with his parents because the abuse happened in his home when she was staying over and they were in the next bedroom.

You seem to have such a lot going on at the moment with your research into the case, your mother's tests and father's recovery. I understand though that you need to put it all in order by finding out what became of the other people. You must be very angry that other children were abused too and he got away with it for a some time. I hope you find the answers here and that elusive therapist!

I hope looking after your parents gets a bit easier and you find someone to help you find the answers you are looking for and get peace of mind. :cautious:
 
I've just come back from my 12th August NHS referral. I spent an hour and a half talking to a psychology doctor.

Good news is she was happy to refer me on further towards treatment - the bad news is that the waiting list is a minimum of six months.
 
What a roller coaster Grim! I'm happy that you've been referred on for help, but I'm sorry that you will have to wait so long to get it.

I don't know what to say that will make it any better, but please know that I admire you for hanging in there, and I will pray that you are seen in the minimum amount of time.
 
Thank you for your kind thoughts Eat0429.

Unfortunately, I'm no better and as we approach the anniversary of 9/11 something will have to be done some how. But I don't know what or how ..
 
I've had a further meeting with the NHS Psychologist today, she seems OK. Also, I now have an emergency number in case I need some 'out of hours help', just the thought of having the number and being able to speak to someone made me cry. I don't know why?

Just possibly I might be moving forward towards some help.... I just hope the light at the end of the tunnel isn't an oncoming train!
 
I'm so happy for you Grim! I hope that you are able to feel much better with this support as soon as you can. Please let us know how you are doing. (((((hugs))))).
 
Found out today that the emergency number is not going to work for me. I'm feeling a bit desperate.
 
Oh no Grim! Why not?

<Not necessary to quote post directly above reply. Amethist>
 
On phoning the emergency number there's a further assessment before 'someone' will get back to you. I just can't do any further assessment with a faceless person. I need to talk to someone I can feel trust with and not be asked 25 bullet points from a questionnaire. I simply can't trust the system.
 
Well that makes sense to me Grim. It sounds like the absolutely pointless waste of time that NHS direct is.

What I have had success with and have used in moments of desperation was the Samaritans call line. Have you tried them?
 
I haven't tried the Samaritans recently as I think my brothers mother-in-law works sometimes in my local one. However, I'm feeling a bit calmer today .. I'll investigate if the Samaritans have a national number. I don't trust people and I don't want to end up talking to someone who might know me.

NHS Direct should be renamed NHS Redirect.
 
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