it not much to any one on Wednesday I have to do safe guarding training I have been really anxious and worried about it so today I have plucked courage up and spoke to deputy head wh is male I dotn trust male I stood by door shaking and pulling on my top it one signs of em anxious and I asked what training is about I also explained that I am trying to deal with my abuse just now so I am really anxious about oing it he said that I can leave the room any time it gets to much for me and he sit me by the door so I can leave he said we should get told opn Wednesday but in case we don't I can leave thee room and have permission to elave he was ok about it I left work shaking and close to tears I know it silly and stupid but I dotn do things like this but it been eating me up