I Feel Like A Piece Of Porcelain That Broke

[jewel]

Hi All-

I'm new here and have had PTSD for three years. I used to be sassy, funny, confident, silly, girly, and smile all the time. Now I feel I am fractured inside, I am like a piece of porcelain that broke and cannot be put together fully, I am numb most of the time and others I feel very SI (please tell me if I am not permitted to say that).

I don't like crowds or people because I just feel different. I miss the old me and feel guilty for my daughter that her mommy is not the same.

I am glad I found this place where I can feel the same as everyone else. Thank you for that.

 

[amethist]

Hi jewel

Welcome to the forum.

I have moved your post to its own thread, it will not be lost in the thread of some one else's this way.

I hope you can find some glue on here to help put your porcelain back to almost as it was, never quite perfect, but then again, I have not met anyone in life yet that is.

Take care.

Amethist

 

[blueangel371115]

You're welcome and welcome to the forum. We can try to help you put the pieces together. but Amethist is right, not qite perfect but togther.

 

[jewel]

Thank you. I recently stopped a DBT group and came upon this site. I felt like I might belong. I hope I do.

 

[cakey]

Welcome to the forums. I'm new too!

This stuff is hard, but there is a way to make it all better. That's why we're all here together. I think you do belong here, and that's why you are here.

 

[cherryblossom]

Hi Jewel. To use your broken porcelain analogy, I don't think anyone is beyond repair. Just like anything that is broken, you won't ever be exactly the same. But it is possible to put yourself back together, slowly, piece by piece. There may still be a few cracks (vulnerabilities) here and there, and it takes continuous effort not to let those cracks get bigger. But with strength determination, and lots of self development and self care you can reclaim yourself.
Welcome to the forum

 

[jewel]

Thanks everyone. I wish there was just an end time that someone could give me. A possible goal for when I will be all better but honestly I cant see it right now. I have been in a very down time for the past few weeks with lots of SI thoughts. It's been real bad and seems to be getting worse. :(