I Feel Like I Can't Trust My Own Mind

[bobjohn]

I feel like I can't trust my mind. I am afraid to join a conversation for fear of feeling like someone is going to judge me, I can't enjoy anything because I feel like I can't trust my mind if I even like it. I bury my feelings and sometimes when they come out it is through yelling. becuase I feel like someone is judging me and acting out. God damn it sometimes I even forget my name I am so unsure of myself. I have thought about getting a new name just so I can know myself a bit better

 

[Daisylove]

Hi Bobjohn,

I'm new here but I feel comfortable saying, that you are in a safe place and nobody will judge you here. Or at least, I will not judge you, I understand how you are feeling... Nobody likes to feel judged and it can hurt especially for people who have been through some kind of trauma.

Getting a new name would be interesting, perhaps it is an opportunity to create a new version of yourself. Although, it would probably be harder to remember than your original name, no? Why not give it a try, just start calling yourself by a new name and see how it goes. If it works, then perhaps you can consider officially changing your name. I think we all need to do what works for us :)

Wishing you health and healing.

 

[void]

I feel like I can't trust my mind. I am afraid to join a conversation for fear of feeling like someone i...

The things you are describing are at least in part due to dissociation.
I'm sure your mental abilities are just fine but when your dissin' hard core, the mind can get very sluggish...very unclear...uncertain.
Happens to me.
It SUCKS, but it is part of PTSD.

Might be self-esteem too...but idk you so i cant be sure.

Do you have someone helping you with this?