ED I feel like I won’t heal until I get my Binge Eating Disorder under control…

[Luna_Moth]

I just eat to numb my feelings and I’m subconsciously afraid of feeling hungry so I’ll do nothing but eat. For me this isn’t about weight, but more so about controlling unimaginable emotions that I’ve buried deep inside.

Last time I allowed myself to be one and still with my body, the flashbacks kept coming back. Now I think I’m holding myself back because it’s too much to handle.

I feel like I don’t have a choice if I want to heal. I’m going to be looking into a DBT therapist since that is what has been recommended to me before I start EMDR.

 

[Teasel]

Hi, fellow binge eater here. DBT sounds like a great place to start, to increase ability to manage your feelings etc.

 

[Luna_Moth]

Hi, fellow binge eater here. DBT sounds like a great place to start, to increase ability to manage your feelings etc.

I think my main issue is sticking to it honestly.

 

[Friday]

It’s a pretty good impulse.

Sometimes our coping mechanisms? Cause more problems than they solve.

PART of healing the ED? Will be finding sooooooo many NEW coping mechanisms for trauma, that the ED is …almost… superfluous. Almost. It’s been with you for awhile, so when things get hard, it will still be knee-jerk to steal clothes out of donation bins, when you’re cold/dirty/g owe …rather than buy new clothes… even with millions in the bank.

Because when something WORKS???

We log that, in our heads & hearts. So even when circumstances change (like broke to buku bucks, or binge eating when we gave better choices) our IMPULSE is to use what worked, before.

It takes a LOT of practice to knee-jerk to “new” coping mechanisms, realities, etc. The familiar? No matter how unhealthy, feels safe. Right. Needed. Necessary. Even when it isn’t. But because it’s worked before? It FEELS that way.