I feel out of control

[GMC]

Hi I’m new here. My name is Grace I’m 23 years old. I was diagnosed with CPTSD about a year ago. I had repressed memories resurface due to a triggering event when I was 20 and it ended with me putting my best friend (my father) in jail for molesting me from the ages of 5-7. I work with a therapist currently but I still just feel like I can’t gain any control back over my own thoughts. I’m constantly battling with intrusive thoughts. I can barely go out in public without feeling panic and fear. My boyfriend tries to be really understanding but he just doesn’t get it. He tells me to just “stop thinking about those things” and I feel like I just really need to know that I’m not alone, or broken. I’m struggling to keep weight on, I’m struggling to do simple tasks to take care of myself. Just feeling really overwhelmed today..

 

[furiouscurve]

Welcome to the site Grace! I can relate with a lot of what you're saying, and have found some comfort in reading posts and talking to some people here. I hope you do too!

 

[Sideways]

Welcome to the forum. Sorry you have reason to be here:)

 

[Anonymous01]

hi. I don't know what to say so Im sorry but I hope you're doing well. I was diagnosed with PTSD after a specific incident and then cptsd after more therapy and realizing certain things in my childhood were kinda f*cked. I guess I know how you feel. It's very lonely a lot of times because people just say cliche things to try and make you feel better or give cliche advice but they don't really understand the feelings and emotions that run through someone dealing with these things. I have the same issue with intrusive thoughts and a lot of times it scares me and so I don't really develop relationships with people because I'm self conscious and idk I've just kinda ended up isolating myself from the world. I hope your therapy is going alright and I hope you're feeling a little better since this post.