Yesterday, I purchased some beautiful tulips for my mom and grown daughter to take the Valentine's Day focus off of me. I stopped by their homes and presented them last night. It made them happy, so I felt good.
Today, I ordered take out seafood for one from my favorite restaurant for dinner and watched rented movies all day. Later in the evening, I went out and bought myself some ice cream with brownies mixed in. Delicious!!
I felt several moments of loneliness but I kept busy. Until I heard a song that reminded me of My ex C-PTSD boyfriend and I broke down crying because I miss him so much deep down. I even when on facebook and stared at his picture. Lol, I know, I know it's crazy...It's foolish but at least I didn't call or text him today.Thank God we are not FB friends.
I'm really okay now. Crying and writing about my feelings helps me get out my painful emotions. I'm trying hard to move on and heal. I have a date with a good male friend tomorrow and I've also been talking to guys online but, I'm not ready for anything outside of a conversation.