I Have A Sign On My Forehead

[Notsowild]

Very inspiring @Candleflames
I treat others a lot better than I treat myself. I do think I am defective. I tell my T that there's no way someone can go through such abuse and be normal. Of course he disagrees. It's such a big part of you. I was sexually and physically abused for 12 years from the age of five. How can that not be part of you. Pretty big task to fix that.

I am really trying to change my behaviour around people. That is my first goal in my therapy. I want to fit in better with society.

 

[Candleflames]

I'm working on that too, one small thing at a time. Right now it's my posture. I've noticed that I slouch when sitting and my shoulders droop forward when standing. I'm trying to stand and sit up in a more healthy way. It's actually not as easy as it sounds cause I feel more noticeable but it seems to be having a positive effect on the way people behave towards me.

What have you tried? How well do you think it worked?

 

[Notsowild]

Isn't the slouching part of not wanting to be noticed? I do that but I'm fairly tall with red hair so that's pretty hard to do. Lol. I haven't thought too much about how I physically present myself to others Hmm

I'm in trauma therapy doing CBT. He is an excellent T . I have the "Life after Trauma" workbook it deals with self esteem, safety and trust after trauma. I also have a psychiatrist. Love her. We deal with negative self talk, being assertive and feelings. They have both been a godsend for me. I wish I had them years ago.