Sufferer I Have Complex Ptsd And I Feel Lonely...

[Tia76]

Hi!

I have been reading in this forum for a while - anytime I google something about PTSD or anything related, I end up finding the best answers here. Thank you so much for sharing, everyone! I've gotten so much help and answers from you! Now I decided it is time for me to introduce myself.

I am Tia, I am in my thirties, and just recently I was diagnosed with PTSD, probably complex, after sexual abuse in my childhood and teenage years. I have been in therapy for years - but this is the first time a therapist actually diagnosed me with PTSD. Earlier it's been eating disorder, personality disorder, anxiety, depression... I diagnosed myself with PTSD many years ago, though ;) This is also the first time I see a traume specialist.

I am a single mother of 4 girls, trying to get the everyday life working. It is hard! Really hard. I struggle everyday, and I feel lonely and I do not have any friends that can understand how I feel - and I isolate myself and I am afraid to tell people about how I feel, because I expect them to think that I am a total nutcase... .

I hope to find friends here that will understand.

Thanks!

 

[anticfox]

Hi! I'm new too.

 

[RussH]

Hi Tia,
Welcome to the forum family. You will find alot of support and understanding here. I know that many times the subject matter is heavy on the fourm, but we do try to infuse some humor as well.

I will look forward to seeing your post, and getting to know you.

 

[RussH]

Hi! I'm new too.

Hi anticfox, nice name:). What I said to Tia goes to you as well.

 

[EverOnly358]

I am a single mother of 4 girls, trying to get the everyday life working. It is hard! Really hard. I struggle everyday, and I feel lonely and I do not have any friends that can understand how I feel - and I isolate myself and I am afraid to tell people about how I feel, because I expect them to think that I am a total nutcase... .

Welcome Tia,

Not only do I understand, I'm right there, too. I'm 40, have 3 kids and I was only recently diagnosed with PTSD, even though I suffered from abuse throughout my childhood. I empathize with everything you said. This forum is great... there's lots of helpful information and supportive people.

D123

Hey, @anticfox, Welcome to you as well!

 

[intothelight]

Hi Tia,

Welcome to MyPTSD forum! :)

It is pretty common to receive many diagnoses before finally being diagnosed with PTSD. While it is a relief to finally know what is wrong, it is also scary. A trauma therapist will really help you with dealing with PTSD and its causes, and I hope you find this forum a benefit to your healing.

Take care.

Debbie

 

[Amalia]

Hi, I`m new on today as well. My issues are so complex I`ve never even been able to stay in a relationship, let alone have children. You sound an incredibly strong person with a beautiful family. And hey, you have friends; one more thing I struggle with. Good luck x

 

[RussH]

And hey, you have friends; one more thing I struggle with

Hi Amalia, although my trauma is different from the ladies here on the forum; like you I have trouble making friends, at least close friends. I have many surface friends, but very few close friends outside of my wife.
All of you, Tia, and the others, keep looking for the silver lining it is there. keep reaching for wellness, you will get there.

 

[Amalia]

Thankyou for that. I just hope people on here who have partners/ loves ... realise that some of us can`t even manage that. Surface friends are okay - you have that one person you are true with. It only takes one, from what I can see.

I am trying not to think about what I have lost as that pain alone might break me. Thankyou again, hug your wife, tell her how lucky yiou are to have her in your life. Tell her why the two of you are incredible together.
Have an awesome evening.[DOUBLEPOST=1402784317,1402784108][/DOUBLEPOST]This forum is amazing for someone like me, who is still trying to make sense of just what a devastating effect ptsd and the other no doubt disorders I suffer from has affected my life.
I am so grateful I found it :shy:

 

[RussH]

am trying not to think about what I hve lost as that pain alone might break me. Thankyou again, hug your wife, tell her how lucky yiou are to have her in your life. Tell her why the two of you are incredible together.
Have an awesome evening.

Amalia, don't give up on love; trust me there is someone out there that is willing to be patient, and to gently break through those defensive walls you have put up, and love the real you. You may not see it but you are a person worthy of being loved, so don't give up on yourself.

You are right; I am truly blessed to have my wife in my life.

 

[RussH]

This forum is amazing for someone like me, who is still trying to make sense of just what a devastating effect ptsd and the other no doubt disorders I suffer from has affected my life.
I am so grateful I found it :shy:

I like your profile picture. It is so true.

 

[Amalia]

Thankyou. And yes, it is very true. Every time we ignore a homeless person, a drunk perosn, a mentally ill perosn on the streets, you can guarantee they are trauma survivors. Well, i revealed on my fb page about an hour ago that I have PTSD and the devastating effect it`s had on my life. The support has been good, really good, and though I`m terrified, I feel it was important that people understood. Especially friends of my ex who are on fb and who really were very unkind to me, as they couldn`t understand why I kept leaving him.
This weekend has certainly been an interesting one.