I hear voices in my head, and they're of people from my high school.

[Tei-Saji]

I was chronically bullied then; now I'm in college.

Anyway, the voices I hear don't really tell me to do anything dangerous; they just comment and harass me in my daily life. If I go to use the computer, one of the voices tells me that I'm overlogging, that I should read a book for once. I recognize the owner of this voice; the teacher told me this once while I was using the computer at leisure. If I'm talking about the past with my family, the voice tells me to quit my whining and "get over it." This kind of voice, I usually haven't the faintest idea where it came from.

And I did an MRI about a month ago, and I've been having these voices long before that, so if it was schizophrenia, it would have shown up. My therapist seems to think so, and finds that its absence on the report is peculiar. But whatever it is; whenever the voices show up, I feel pressure inside my brain, and it makes me feel uneasy. I also have a pituitary gland disorder called prolactinoma, which could be the cause of it.

I'm just trying to make sense of what these voices are, and how I can get rid of them.

 

[Ssam]

Hi. When I was 13 I was a witness to my best friends rape and then the rapist tryed to kill us.

Anyway I have no end of counciling that has never worked for me and sometimes you can be screaming so loud for help and no one does I have a whole bunch of problem but I also hear voices like you they don't tell me to do anything but comment on everything I do.

Like you could have done that better your worthless and various other things personally. I think it is the brains subconscious that has over reacted to the trauma event and now wants the body to do everything perfect when that's impossible that's just my theory.

 

[Philippa]

I think that when we received these messages of invalidation so much from others, we start to eventually internalize them, and then we don't even need other people to hassle us, because we are doing it to ourselves, even when they are long gone. It's an insidious thing to have this mental chatter re-hashing all the invalidating comments we got so used to.

Maybe you can try challenging them when they 'happen', by saying something like "I could read a book, but I don't really feel like it now...maybe later. Right now I need to log on and check for mail, but thankyou for the suggestion...a book would be a nice change." And for the others something like "I will get over it when I'm ready and not before...please stop telling me to get over it."

By challenging these voices, you start taking power back from them. Engaging them in conversation, can be a powerful way to make them friends instead of feeling victimized by them. The first one sounded like it might have been acting in your best interests? Sometimes the inner critic can be just wanting to help or protect us in some way, even if it comes across as nagging or harmful.

Hope this helps.

 

[Tei-Saji]

That kinda helps.

Thank you.