I Just Don't Fit In, Not Even Here

[Stacie]

Thank you very much, Iam for your welcome and yes, that makes perfect sense..

 

[Deleted member 487]

Iam, face it- you're one of us. We grow on people like fungus.

 

[Iam]

Gah, yeah.....I sure am Cactus_Jack. :tup:

 

[charliehotelwhiskey]

I was feeling like this just today. I have friends in other parts of the country that I e-mail to and lately just not getting any response from them. I feel that I had just fallen off the earth. Abandon. Lonely. :(

 

[Iam]

I'm sorry Charlie. I've been feeling lonley and abandoned as well. In my case though it is my own fault. I have been isolating so well duh.....LOL. Sometimes email and cellphones give us the feeling that responses should be almost instantaneous, you know, the in constant contact thing. I don't know if that has anything to do with it in your case. Hang in there and keep reaching out. I hope you are finding connections here on the forum. This really is a good place for honest support. (((HUGS)))

 

[charliehotelwhiskey]

((((Iam))))

This really is a good place for honest support.

I agree. This forum has been great. I don't feel like I'm the only one who has these feelings or problems, other people have the same or simliar feelings or problems. Its comfort.

 

[Ian Vp]

Lam I can relate to isolating yourself but at the moment to me that feels safer. I isolate myself as much as possible and then choose who I want to let in. I feel like I cant let too many people in because I cant manage them all. I have read a few of the posts and like everyone can see parts of myself. I love text and email because I have removed myself one step from unpredicatability and I feel like I have that level of control over my contact with people. The down side is when you send out messages and you are jonesing for a reply.
You sound to me like you are Master Yoda in comparison to me in terms of dealing with your PTSD, everyone has their path and is only as far along it as they can manage. Looking back to your first posts in this thread I know exactly what you mean by only attracting attention when you were either at the top of your game and positive or out of control on the other end of the scale. Being comfotably numb and managing is sometimes being unseen. I am glad to see that so many people have replied to you on this thread. At the start you seemed really hard on yourself and down and as the thread has grown it seems so have your replies. I hope this message finds you well.