I just realized....

[Muted]

I just realized that I no longer care if I die. I’m not afraid of death. I just don’t care anymore.

 

[EveHarrington]

Hugs.

Do you want to talk about it more?

 

[Tinyflame]

Hi @Muted .

I once, about 12 1/2 years ago, when it was necessary (I had not intentionally caused it) , did not call 911 or try to get aspirins and I remember feeling the same, and also feeling it was a new low to come to this.

I won't bore you with details, but just to say about 4-6 months later there was some help.

Especially in the case if you have anyone who loves you or needs you- children, SO, parents, siblings, extended family, etc, your presence and existence is not replacable.

I hope you can find some relief and help too. :hug:

 

[Supervixn]

Freeing in a way... dark anyway you view it. You're here because you have a purpose. Find superficial comfort in this realization, but don't live there. Snap back soon... the world is waiting

 

[Deleted member 541]

@Muted I’m not sure if you’re in a depressed state or not, but I can tell you I’m not, but have felt this was since my last suicide attempt 4 or 5 yrs ago. I’m just resigned to the fact that it really doesn’t matter anymore, wether I’m here or not. I’m not happy, I’m not sad, I’m just here. Hard to explain.

 

[MrMoonlight]

It terrible when you get to the point where the thought of death or killing yourself becomes unlinked from emotion. I remember decades ago being upset when thinking about death or suicide, now I don't get emotional about it. That's scary to me...

Please just let some time pass and do the thinks you know you should be doing in these moments.

We can get better if we allow it..

 

[Muted]

Idk @EveHarrington Im in a weird place right now. It’s so hard to talk, because I’ve closed myself off.

Thanks @Junebug this IS a weird feeling for sure.

Thanks @Supervixn I hope that I can figure out what my purpose is.

Thanks I get that @She Cat thats how I feel now like I’m just existing it’s weird.

@MrMoonlight thank you, it is freaky not to feel like I care about anything anymore. I feel dejected about life.

 

[Supervixn]

What ever brings you positivity and helps others is your purpose. You're important.

 

[Muted]

What ever brings you positivity and helps others is your purpose. You're important.

Thank you.

 

[LuckiLee]

Good for you for reaching out. You're not alone.

 

[EveHarrington]

Do you need more support in your life?

 

[Muted]

Do you need more support in your life?

I probably do. I feel very isolated right now.