I Just Want To Cry

[Copper Princess]

Sitting in therapy I just wanted to cry but I couldn't. I left and felt even worse. I literally just want to bawl my eyes out. I feel so bad right now. Driving past one of the places several assaults happened does not help me at all. I just want to crawl in a hole right now and cry until I can't cry any more. It is so embarrassing to talk about what has happened but it hurts to hold it in. Ugh! :(

 

[BlueOrange]

Crying is a signal that means "I need help." Sometimes, we get taught that it's dangerous to send that signal, and we end up feeling unable to cry.

I think that unlocking the tears in a safe place is likely to be good for you. It's probably worth talking to your therapist about today's events, and seeing what you can do to find or make a safe place.

 

[ladee]

I have been in this place many times. I had to let things come to the surface in thier own time. Including tears.

It was pounded into my head that tears was weakness. I had to learn how to cry. Isn't that just sad! I had to be taught how to express a human emotion.
You will get there. As was suggested, please share this with your T. Even if you have to write it down and hand it to them.
We can't heal it if we can't feel it.
Sending tender gentle hugs to you if you accept