I Know I Have Ptsd, But It Still Hurts .

[Panda Bear]

I'm not dumb, I know that I have PTSD. It's not like my therapist has made it a secret.

I'm overly aware of the accommodations I've had to make in order to function on a daily basis. I know how I behave and relate to people/life is off....

But I'm overwhelmingly sad! I'm devastated that this is what is 'wrong' with me. I'm crushed! Heartbroken! Disappointed! My heart is breaking!

I don't want PTSD. I didn't ask for it. I didn't want to be raised by crazy people. They did this, not me and here I am walking the life I've been given. Navigating forgiveness, grief, the sadness!

I'm just so sad...very, very sad.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

I'm glad that you realize it wasn't your fault.

It will pass, you are in a temporary tough period right now. Try to find stuff that helps you feel better, stick to that.

I am feeling similar, and find it hard to give much other advice, but I understand, I'm here for you.

Sending warm hugs :hug:

 

[Intrepid]

I don't want PTSD. I didn't ask for it.

Yup.

 

[Tinyflame]

Yep. All you can do is treat it while you still have life to salvage, while you still have time. The more you lose & the longer it goes untreated the less you'll be left with & the losses compound.

:hug:

 

[Panda Bear]

I know @Junebug ....I know.

It's just been swallowing me whole these past few days. Changing a life is hard work :notworthy:

 

[Tinyflame]

I'm sorry @Panda Bear , if that made you feel down. :(

On a strange note, some of what I missed, actually specifically the 'whom' etc was a real big blessing (I came back to add 'real big'). I suppose there are so many different realities, if you turn a different corner your life could be different. More specifically though, I imagine the healthier you are the better equipped you will be, the better choices you will likely make, & also the happier you will be. :hug: