Need to vent. Talked to my insurance company today about getting more money for trauma therapy. He kept saying I had pre-existing anxiety so how much is related to the accident. Well yes I had anxiety before but hadn't had a panic attack in years. Then lo and behold about three weeks after the accident I had a unexpected panic attack while driving. And of course all the other symptoms like flashbacks,insomnia, jumpiness, hypervigilance , forgetfulness etc etc etc don't mean anything. Like I wanted the flashbacks (ya there so much fun).
I'm just tired of it all. My trying to get myself better to try and work again. I'm just tired of no one believing. And because I didn't break my leg than I must be alright. It must be all in my head. I'm making it all up. For what? Because I like feeling different? Right! Because I like living on half the money I used to make ( now that's lots of fun) NOT.
Then there's the complex PTSD from CSA and the accident trauma. Different traumas with different symptoms. But of course the childhood trauma came before the accident.
I just want it all to go away. It's making my anxiety worse. They don't really care. And then I'm dealing with HR and back to work accommodations.I just want to work on healing
Thanks for being here.
I'm just tired of it all. My trying to get myself better to try and work again. I'm just tired of no one believing. And because I didn't break my leg than I must be alright. It must be all in my head. I'm making it all up. For what? Because I like feeling different? Right! Because I like living on half the money I used to make ( now that's lots of fun) NOT.
Then there's the complex PTSD from CSA and the accident trauma. Different traumas with different symptoms. But of course the childhood trauma came before the accident.
I just want it all to go away. It's making my anxiety worse. They don't really care. And then I'm dealing with HR and back to work accommodations.I just want to work on healing
Thanks for being here.
