@Lucycat There is no concrete proof because the hospital f*cked up my rape kit. He and his friends were suspects in a number of other rapes (didn't get caught for any of those either, our police dept is shit), sells the drug that he raped me with (research chemical, doesn't show on a drug test). I dated him briefly before all of this happened and he always pushed that drug really really hard on me but wouldn't tell me what it was (red flag, this is why I stopped seeing him). One of my friends went to a party at his house, was drugged and had a seizure (but wasn't raped because luckily her brother was there). He and his friends all told me different stories. The detective and I connected the dots, but all of the evidence was circumstantial, not physical. Our police dept refuses to even bring a rape case to trial unless they know they're going to win (this is why none of the other rape cases were closed either).
@Ayesha I had him added from a long time ago (before he raped me) and A.) I don't know how to delete people on Snapchat, B.) it's public, you can recieve snaps from anyone if they know your username/have you added. I think he still has my phone number too, but he hasn't tried to contact me by phone yet. I did tell the detective, she's aware.
@Justmehere She did call me back and leave a voicemail saying it wasn't a bother and that she supports me. She didn't seem concerned about the cases being screwed because of it (although she did say that she hadn't seen or heard anything about him since May. Which is f*cked up because he was in jail all summer for selling alcohol to a minor and she should probably had known that . . . I don't think there are any cases against him that are being investigated right now.
Update: On Monday (when all of this happened) I had talked to my mom on the phone and told her that Bryan had tried to contact me (this was before I went to his house). She was really worried considering that he hasn't contacted me for a long time and thought it might mean something. So she e-mailed the detective Tuesday morning to let her know that Bryan tried to contact me. The detective told her that I had already let her know and told her that I had gone over there and confronted his parents. So now my parents know I did this, Dad's out of town and they're both really concerned for my safety. I'm not very worried about him retaliating. It has crossed my mind, but I don't think he would do anything that he would risk getting caught doing (drugging and raping girls clearly isn't that 'risky.' No one ever gets f*cking prosecuted for it). My mom is making me stay in a hotel with her because she doesn't think I'm safe at home alone. I'm just so f*cking sick of running. I'm an adult, I need to take care of myself. I'm sick of hiding and running from this, and I'm not afraid of him. All of this is even more stressful because my mom and I haven't been getting along very well lately.
I mean, I understand why they're worried and feel the need to keep me away from home for a while, but I think they're wrong. It just feels very awful and triggery to be told that I SHOULD feel afraid, I SHOULD feel bad about doing something, I SHOULD go into hiding . . . when it's taken me so long to undo those feelings. I don't know. This is going to be a really difficult week.
On top of all of this that happened within the last few days, I'm trying to find a new job. My current employer is a cocaine addict and lashes out at me when she's tweaked out. I've been trying to stick it out until I can find a new job but honestly I am just really not up for work tomorrow and might call in and quit in the morning. The only person in an administrative position who I felt comfortable with quit on Monday so now if I quit it means I have to talk to my cokehead boss directly, and I'm really not up for that either. I just don't know what to do, I feel really stuck and anxious.
