I Realize That I

[Lionheart]

I realize that I am much too hard on myself and often do not consider human flaws and mistakes to be 'par for the course'.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

I realize that I remain chopstick challenged. I do just well enough for a few bites to think I have the hang of it and then, whoomp, there it went, and my brain and fingers will no longer cooperate.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I realize that I'm struggling to feel my emotions. A lot of them just feel heavy.

I realize the past few months have been very stressful.

I realize that I think everything is starting to catch up to me.

I realize that a lot of things even random things have been making me emotional.

I realize that I feel pretty alone right now.

 

[Tinyflame]

Oh @Tornadic Thoughts :laugh:

Hi @BlackbirdSinging , haven't 'seen' you for a long time. :hug: :) (Junebug)

 

[Tinyflame]

I realize I don't need Gaviscon nearly as much when it's not a work day.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

I realize that I need and greatly enjoy real life human connections more than I currently experience. Small doses, still, but increased doses would be nice.

 

[Tinyflame]

I realize I've done all that I can to get a voice, learn how to ask for help, be respected., trust, try to identify and get needs met. But it's not in the cards for me.

 

[Tinyflame]

I realize I don't need a voice, not even an identity. I have a solution, just don't trust and don't disclose. Like work, the purpose is survival, the rest is irrelevant. Enough self pity, and it's easy not to be vulnerable, just disappear and keep my distance, and keep my mouth shut. For my relationships, I'll do what I did before- give them what they want. Good enough.

Too bad sick of being sick isn't enough to get well. :( That is frustrating. But, no one has to know about it. Which is very easy, because feelings aren't of big value in my circles, or with most people, I think.

I'm not sure I feel content, but I do feel better about it. Because I'm tired of wondering if I was born stupid, or just spent my life perfecting it. :laugh:

 

[Tinyflame]

I realize I'm around a lot of people, who have a lot in common, but not with me. And say a lot of things, which apply to them, but not to me. And do a lot of things, but they don't apply to me. And that is the definition of not fitting in, of not belonging there.

 

[Rani G2]

Will have to show heart and be a little soft also. No enemy out there to kill me.. so let’s just get cool a Iil bit..
Equanimity is a word

 

[Ronin]

... -->

Waste of space.
And saner archers.
Able to see horizons behind 'it's a job. Not a whole life.'

I also realize fck me, needs are not liquids, needs are whiskey. Nvm. Saner archers.

 

[Lionheart]

I realize there is no cure for PTSD but that I can still have a higher quality of life if I stay on a healing path.