I Realize That I

[Recovery4Me]

I realize that there is a big difference in feeling safe and all those situations I put myself in that...

Your post resonates with me while offering profound reflection. ((((hugs))) It is challenging to learn various healthy degrees of safe. :hug::hug:

Today, I realized pretty much Let it Be's entire post, echoed for myself. As I am detoxing from my ex rage-aholic, I feel a twinge of disbelief at my level of subordinate indoctrination to a very dangerous partnership. Therefore, as I peer out at my new surrounding, a sense of serenity & general well being takes root. I have loosened the chains that bound me to a construct of unhealthy love. Love does not repeatedly injure the body, mind and soul.

 

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I realize that I could not be where I am now without all of the help and support of my forum friends. They had my back when things were rough for me and I was feeling so discouraged but because of them, I perservered and suceeded.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I realize that I am going to have to study really hard in my computer class. Today I felt lost and told that to the Proffessor and she said she would help me out. I realize that I am not the only student that is lost either.

 

[Let It Be]

I realize that I have given up so much of myself in order to feel included, to be liked, to fit in, to belong, when all the time, it has just been about me, and what I need to do for myself.

I realize that I have to take it day by day so I will not lose myself with others. I realize that it is something that I can practice doing on a daily basis and face the anxiety and fear when it comes up.

 

[Ronin]

I realize that I didn't fail A. and prayers for her may be enough at this point.

I realize little acts of not accepting what one's handed is just enough. Probably need to bug friends about that some more. (Start where you are, do what you can, Allah demands no more.) Also that one where 'Little acts of kindness are the deepest sacrifice one can make'. Old axioms need to be something firmer than leaves in the wind, coming back each fall.

 

[Anrish]

I realize that I got used to the feeling of having someone sleeping next to me.

 

[Ronin]

@Anrish, would life-sized pillows help? Or similarly big plushies? at least for the snuggling in and so, needs?

 

[Anrish]

@Cashew : Thank you for the ideas. I already have two blankets (one over me and one in my back) and my big tiger plushie...:sleep:

 

[Ronin]

@Anrish. Rawwr (as a tiger I mean), I so help that plushie homie guards you well.

 

[Recovery4Me]

I realized that...I am taking part of the day off in the middle of a crisis. However, I am having a really happy time bouncing on the board among friends.

Tomorrow...I will start. Today is for me. I have not had a say about what I wanted to do for a long time and perhaps not to be for a short while again. So today is National Me Day. I have food, cigs, internet, bed to nap and attitude. So I think...I will allow myself a day of joy instead of duty.

 

[Ronin]

@Recovery4Me happy national you day. I'm so for that nation. :D Lots of comfort to you.

 

[Recovery4Me]

@Cashew Happy International Me Day then to you!!!! (((hugs))) We are on the map of our own lives.