I Should Be Happy But I'm Not.

[wattle]

I haven't visited the forum in such a long time, haven't needed too, life got comfortable for awhile, it seems to me that the little things creep up on me.

Late last year the son I'm closest to, came off his motor bike on our farm and dislocated his hip, he's back at work already, a few days a week, way too soon but he needs the pay. He found it tough going with a new baby in his house and then in January his home was flooded to the top of his windows and the house is on tall stumps.

I have been getting out and about, not much just a little, still it's been good to leave my home and see whats happening out and about, so with my sons home an absolute sodden muddy mess, I was able to leave home and help with the clean up.

It was heart breaking seeing the amount of my sons family's stuff that had to be thrown out, the great thing was that the local community have helped out a lot with cleaning and even repainting and fixing things that were damaged.

My son got news this morning though that his landlord is putting up the rent....

I feel so bad for my son and his wife, I know they can't afford to move....so my son, his wife and baby daughter are coming home, I should be very happy I get to spoil my baby Grandaughter and yet all I feel like doing is crying.

Everything seems to be mounting up, maybe I just need sleep.

 

[intothelight]

Hi Wattle,

All of the events you described have to be putting a huge amount of stress on you. Even though they have resolved to some extent, don't be hard on yourself for feeling overwhelmed.

Use what tools you need to get back on track.

Take care.
Debbie

 

[blueangel371115]

((((Wattle)))
hang in there.

 

[wattle]

Thanks Debbie and Blueangel, Debbie your right about using the tools, I seem to have let everything slide away. I must start doing meditation and walking again.

I get run down when I'm not sleeping and nightmares have come back lately, so sleep has been evading me, too much on mind I guess. I seem to be making my familys comments into negative statements, I feel like I don't have anywhere to go with it, it's just piling up all around me.

I've kept telling myself for weeks that it's the run down after the not so festive season. I feel stiffled, like the air is to thick to breath and heavy.

 

[blueangel371115]

I know how you feel. Been having a rough time lately.