stu_the_blue
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And I think I’m ready to see what’s next ! This is not a cry for help. This is me coming to terms with the fact that everything you once had has slowly slipped away. I have always believed that my wife would eventually break and realise she’s done. She started treatment for early menopause a couple of years ago when I was at my worst
So we probably haven’t been the same since .
I suffer with a lot of other illnesses and I’ve been prescribed a lot of meds , some very strong , I’m also T1 diabetic. So… here I am just putting some words down so the people that I care about may understand that I can’t keep doing this ..
I don’t like the world anymore 20 years chasing bad guys around gives you a pretty negative outlook on society. Add all the other shite that I’ve got going on I know the next episode of depression will be my last!
I had an idea I was losing my wife for a while and I’ve really tried to get closer to her but she’s always tired due to working full time and keeping the family running along whilst I’m sleeping off the feeling of impending doom.
And I know she’s getting attention at work. Why wouldn’t she !
So that’s it. I’ve handed over all my debt back to the companies that stiffed me with them to begin with. No comeback on my wife . They will have a great life together just got to deal with a bit of pain. I’m not a danger to myself or anyone else and the risk is currently low but I can see it coming soon ! Sorry for the long rant and keep up the fight x
So we probably haven’t been the same since .
I suffer with a lot of other illnesses and I’ve been prescribed a lot of meds , some very strong , I’m also T1 diabetic. So… here I am just putting some words down so the people that I care about may understand that I can’t keep doing this ..
I don’t like the world anymore 20 years chasing bad guys around gives you a pretty negative outlook on society. Add all the other shite that I’ve got going on I know the next episode of depression will be my last!
I had an idea I was losing my wife for a while and I’ve really tried to get closer to her but she’s always tired due to working full time and keeping the family running along whilst I’m sleeping off the feeling of impending doom.
And I know she’s getting attention at work. Why wouldn’t she !
So that’s it. I’ve handed over all my debt back to the companies that stiffed me with them to begin with. No comeback on my wife . They will have a great life together just got to deal with a bit of pain. I’m not a danger to myself or anyone else and the risk is currently low but I can see it coming soon ! Sorry for the long rant and keep up the fight x