I Took The Leap And Applied.

[FauxLiz]

I do have a habit of catastrophing about my employment but with this employer I have had an attorney in this calendar year tell me that if I could get them to offer me a separation agreement I should take it. My employer has publicly harassed me through the regular media and social media as well as having filed an unfounded criminal complaint that was dismissed as unfounded by the sheriff's department and District Attorney. Unfortunately, if I don't get this job and they do terminate, as long as they say it wasn't for cause they can dismiss me without any legal challenges. It is one of the perils of the work I do.

 

[Powder]

Sounds like you are ready to move on from a place that will only feed any exaggerations that your mind can manufacture. I did that, and I think it is a good thing. Simply staying put when you are unhappy feels sort of self-destructive, real or imagined.

I'm sorry and I don't like the sound of the current employer. Sounds corrupt.

 

[FauxLiz]

I am not a big fan of my current employer either but I am not sure that I am ready to relocate as I have a kid in high school right now and if I lose my current job without getting this job I applied for that would be a requirement because of the field in which I work.

 

[Powder]

Is there a way to apply at this point, or is that idea off the table entirely due to security reasons?

I'm sorry that this seems to be the case. I understand about having a child and obligations.

 

[aut555]

Omg, now you have me hanging. @Muse l suffer the same thoughts about losing my job. Keeping my fingers crossed that this goes smoothly. Stay with positive thoughts, stay open to taking your great work ability to a different field. It sounds that this industry is tight, and everyone knows everything no matter what. So no need to stress really about this. You obviously have a good chance at this position. Your original employer may have no intention of getting rid of you. Your work performce will speak for you. Stay positive.

 

[FauxLiz]

Well after the meeting that I attended for work tonight I can honestly say I don't think that more than one or two of the seven member board that I report to will put up a struggle if I am offered an interview with the organization I applied to.

The board members were just the worst examples of humanity I could have put in a room together to attempt to make decisions. The name calling, the personal attacks, the rounds of applause by the audience members when certain board members would stop talking was embarrassing. The meeting room was filled with residents and high school students fulfilling their class requirements and I have never been so mortified in front of my own child. The only thing that I am holding on to at this point is that I hope to hear by Friday the 2nd at the earliest or Monday the 5 at the latest that I have been offered an interview.. I know that if I get the interview and don't get the job I could be in substantial trouble but at this point I just don't think I can survive another 18 months of this toxic environment until my son graduations from high school.

 

[Powder]

Okay, can I say, "YES!" to your post!

That kind of aggressive/unimaginative cluster ***k of human egos is upsetting I'm sure on more than one level, and not just to PTSD folks.

I think that you want out of a clearly "toxic" group. That word seems appropriate to me.

Even if it were not toxic, I believe you said it was economically a better position as well for you. For all these reasons, I hope you get it, and I do believe that you should try to believe in it, and give it a true go.

I am also applying for a better paid position that I found after stating to myself that such a position is a better role to fit in within this sector. I'm okay if I don't get it, but it would be better for retirement, benefits, pay rate, and environment for PTSD and personality.

What steps can you take in the next few days to be prepared for that interview?

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