I Took The Leap And Applied.

[FauxLiz]

I suppose it could be said that I am one of the luck PTSD sufferers in that I work a full time job. This is something that my T and I have discussed quite a bit in part because the work I do can be extraordinarily stressful which does not go well with my PTSD. In my current position I am regularly verbally and cyber bullied by members of the Board that I report to and have even had to endure a criminal investigation that was completely unfounded and constant threat to my maintaining my job.

After a particularly harrowing board meeting yesterday I realized that I simply couldn't stand the idea of not trying to improve my circumstances. So today I took a big leap and applied for another position that would be a lateral move financially and organizationally but has a reputation for being a much better place to work. Now I just have to wait and see if I get an interview.

 

[Powder]

Good on you! Will it be competitive, given that it may be common knowledge that it's a good lateral move?

Fingers crossed for you. I can certainly relate.

 

[FauxLiz]

It will be very competitive, it is a lateral move for me but would be a significant move forward for candidates from smaller organizations with several years experience.

 

[Freedomfighter]

I suppose it could be said that I am one of the luck PTSD sufferers in that I work a full time job. Th...

Good luck to you, brazen work abuse is very common, hopefully you will find better coworkers.

 

[EveHarrington]

Awesome! :)

 

[Powder]

I hope you get it. Sounds like you have earned it, and you will do well.

 

[FauxLiz]

@Muse thank you. I won't hear anything for 3-4 weeks and with the holidays it may actually be after the first of the year but I hope I get this job. Lately, my job is really taking up what most people consider personal time as I have worked every week night for the last two weeks.

 

[Powder]

Ugh. I can't do that for long without paying with my health or having stuff surface. Being too tired is like the welcome wagon for my PTSD.

I hope you can find a break every day, just a little, just for yourself to recharge your batteries and feed your spirit.

Don't let it wear you down. Build yourself up and expect to get it. If you don't, there will be next time, but manifest it in the now. Pretend it's happening now, and be prepared. :)

You have a positive tone. I'm sure that means you already know this and I'm wasting time here. :laugh:

 

[FauxLiz]

I had an hour long phone interview with the recruiter today. I think it went well and she is going to contact a couple of my references. This is all going much quicker than I had expected. I really didn't think anything would happen until after the first of the year. I was totally wrong. The company will be doing interviews in mid-December. I am totally freaking out because I didn't expect to have to deal with the possibility of all this during the holidays. If I get selected for an interview I have to tell my board of directors and they may use that as a reason to fire me.

 

[Powder]

Why would you have to tell that you have an interview for an internal or lateral move? Because they will find out anyway?

Just curious. I don't know what industry you're in or how that works.

 

[FauxLiz]

It would be a move to another organization and I would have to tell because it would be come public record and the interview would be held in an open public meeting. The industry that I work in is subject to state open meetings/open records requirements. Additionally, the press would be covering the meeting where the interviews are held so there would be a newspaper/internet story about all the candidates.

 

[Powder]

Then my next question would be, has the termination of employees at your current employer happened due to this in the past? Is it likely?

Given the public nature, I would think it would be simple to sue for wrongful termination. Not that that makes it all better, but if likely to be opening ones org to a suit, I'd think they would not want to do that if you don't achieve the jump to the other org and you're a good worker.

For me, paranoia, for lack of better word, is always niggling away at me. I feel constantly that my boss wants to get rid of me. However, I have learned that I am incorrect and it's a cognitive distortion or emotional set point I have.

Not saying you have this, too, as part of your makeup or even PTSD makeup, but for me, it's a strong feature of my struggles to take ownership of any successes or celebrate any progress.