Since being on this 'internet forum' I have now learnt that I do not qualify for PTSD but may for Rumination. This understanding has in itself been helpful so I will look elsewhere. I have only even wanted to get some pointers in the right direction. I didn't post here to get some therapy or medication, I can assure you.The only way it would be PTSD is if you meet the current diagnostic criteria of PTSD, which these experiences that you have spoken of already do not qualify for. Take a look over the diagnostic criteria and pay attention to criterion A, which is an actual or perceived threat to your physical wellbeing or sexual trauma. If you meet crit A, these could be trigger responses relative to PTSD. If you don't meet crit A, they may be trigger responses relative to adjustment disorder, OCD, depression, substance use disorder, or any number of other things that would require professional (so, you're not going to get an answer on an internet forum) assessment to suss out.