I keep having horrible horrible dreams. Dreams that I don’t love him anymore. Dreams of being back with my exes and being treated horribly. It’s starting to get unbearable. I know I love him, but this anxiety has pushed me away so so far. It’s severed the connection. I don’t know what to do because I really want to be with him and love him and go through life with him. But this is so so hard. I’m losing sleep and I can’t get myself to go to work. It’s hard to get up. There are moments where I feel this intense love for him so I know it’s there. I don’t want to break his heart but I fear I’m not ready. My body isn’t letting me love him like he deserves and like I want to. What do I do?