Sufferer Intro: Ptsd And Did

[BuckarooBanzai]

Hi Everyone!

I've already met a few of you in chat. Seems like a fine group.

I'm a math teacher working on a graduate degree in mathematics. While not working on math stuff, I like to walk, bike, read, and watch science documentaries.

I'm an introvert and fairly reclusive at times.

I suffer from both PTSD and DID. My initial traumas were when I was very young, during my preverbal years, so my memories are not truly accessible. This means I mostly suffer from affective flashbacks (emotional flashbacks that don't have visual or auditory components).

Today, for instance, I am locked in my Safe Room because I am afraid to go out into the rest of my apartment, lest there be a 'monster' out there waiting for me. The 'monster' is obviously a screen for my childhood perpetrator, but that's about as far as I can get at this point.

 

[SeanCharles]

Great start! :)

 

[BuckarooBanzai]

Thanks!

 

[SeanCharles]

You're welcome! :D

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome to the forum! :hug:

 

[Silver.]

I already welcomed you, but no harm in saying it again, thanks for sharing your story with us. Lots of great posts here and people that can relate to the things you are going through.
Take Care x

 

[BuckarooBanzai]

This is a wonderfully supportive group; I can tell already. I'm sure glad I chose this site!

Thank you, everyone! :hug:

Ben

 

[void]

@BuckarooBanzai

Maths is a perfect discipline in many ways as the M.O. of most researchers is plenty of solitude...heavy on the cogitating...light on the socializing...:bookworm::geek::happy:

I know of a Maths PhD who faces the WALL whenever he speaks to anyone...EVEN his close associates.:happy:

 

[Silver.]

PS-I hope you have been studying up on Algebra, my daughter will be advancing into Algebra for school, and we might need some help :) :p

 

[chant2012]

Hello and welcome it is my wish that you will find this place safe and supportive. I can relate to what you write most of my flashbacks are you there somatic or affective as well.

 

[BuckarooBanzai]

@BuckarooBanzai

Maths is a perfect discipline in many ways as the M.O. of most researc...

Oh, I totally agree! One reason why I am back in graduate school for math this time around!

Ben

 

[BuckarooBanzai]

PS-I hope you have been studying up on Algebra, my daughter will be advancing into Algebra for school,...

Hi Silver!

I love teaching algebra. I used to teach high school math, mostly algebra.

Ben