Much better thank you very much. My only concern is that I have never had that before - it felt like hypervigilance but necessary, safe and that if I was attacked (which I almost hoped for) I would be able to fight back and come out on top - like I wanted to prove that I could. I feel much better today and am taking the sedatives back to normal - the sedatives are the Promethazine (which I know is primarily a Antihistimine) and I have been told is non-addictive - the benefit would be that I could take this permanently. I take 25mg as needed, up to 3 times a day - it was prescribed 3x a day but I said mostly I'd rather take them only twice and as such was told that I could take them as I wanted within the 3x daily limit. They've given me this to avoid necessary hospitalisation. Usually I'm do well on 2 times a day, but when worse 3 is necessary.
I spoke to my therapist today and she didn't say that it was mania, but she didn't specify that it wasn't either. She did say that I was obviously triggered and she was curious what had triggered such a fighting response. We're going to discuss it further and also see if it happens again, but she has recommended I get an appointment with my Psychiatrist to look at the meds, because I shouldn't be feeling that way just because I'm not sedated and obviously it was very difficult. Also to look at the Buspirone, as it is not doing what it's prescribed for and may be causing increased blood pressure. It feels stupid if it was caused by a base level of possible excitement/anticipation, the excitement from the film I watched and a lack of sedation. Or just not feeling down but still being anxious.
I don't usually drink tea or coffee, though I've never noticed a difference from them unless drunk excessively, needless to say I avoid them because of anxiety, though mostly through fear of becoming addicted to them. The same goes for chocolate, no negative response (except weight related issues!), but I avoid it most of the time.
I'll be curious to see how tonight is, as it seems to have been through the last few nights, with last night being 10x worse than the rest, the others just passed me as possible excitement from the films, I will monitor it though. Thank you all.
