Is This Dissociation Or Something More?

[Cabernet88]

Hi all,

I have had some really weird stuff happen lately. I had black out spells where I can't remember what happened. Most recently, this happened last night. Yesterday people came over. I hate being in social situations but I decided to try as it is a lot for my mom to do alone. Throughout the day, I felt lifted....somewhat hypo-manic, I guess, and toward the end of the day this only got more severe. At one point, someone even asked if I had been drinking.

However, that is all I remember of yesterday. It is all fragmented and in bits and pieces. Eventually, I think I remember going to my room and going to sleep....I have an alarm permanently set for 7:00 a.m. but I don't remember waking up or turning it off, I must have because I didn't wake up until a few minutes ago.

Very similar things have happened several times over the last month or so and I am scared. I keep losing time and having periods of time I can't remember. I am kind of scared to even discuss it with my T. My T is actually awesome, but what if she says I need to be hospitalized? Or worse, what if this means a new diagnosis like Schizophrenia or something? Or is this just what dissociation is like?

I don't know if this makes a difference, but I have also experienced a lot of headaches over the past few weeks. Also, I take 100mg of Zoloft daily. Thanks in advance.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Headaches can be typical of a dissociative disorder.

Denial isn't going to help you heal. (Just the opposite....)

You'll only be hospitalized if you're a danger to yourself or others.

I advise talking to your therapist.

 

[shimmerz]

Headaches can be typical of a dissociative disorder.

I didn't know this. Thank you.

I have an incredible fear of being hospitalized as well. I get it. The thing is, the longer it goes on without your understanding or your T's help in managing, the more likely this will happen. I think they call this type of behaviour avoidance. :confused:

Get on it if you can. Don't wait until it really starts to freak you out. You have an ally in your T. Try really hard to fight the urge to resist reaching out with trusted ones if you can.

 

[Born to Run]

There was a thread last week by someone losing time as a new symptom, which my be of interest to you:

T Thinks I Have Did?