I've Got a Bad Feeling - Posts Make Me Anxious

[YoungAndAngry]

Meh... I have a diploma in computer programming,
in college I spent alot of time designing graphics/websites/programs/etc.
So I've had a little bit of practice, lol

It's really just a matter of having a decent/good graphic editing program,
and by following all the tutorials you can make some pretty cool stuff!!!
I use Macromedia Fireworks MX... couldn't live without it.

 

[beatle_bailey]

Thanks for the try mac ,, ,, could not make that work ,,,

great work young&angry now just got to figure out how to get it on my avatar picture thing ,,,

that could drive me nuts in it self ,, :dont-know haven't got a clue ,,:rofl: Beatle

 

[YoungAndAngry]

I'm trying to get the avatar working for you...
for some silly reason it's chosen as your current avatar, but isn't showing up (at least not on my screen)

 

[YoungAndAngry]

Yup, it's giving me some struggle.
I'm sure Anthony'll be able to fix it in a second :)

 

[beatle_bailey]

so you meen I may not even have to think about this at all ,, Wow ,, ,, you may have saved me days of headaces ,,, Thanks ,, :thumbs-up Beatle

 

[YoungAndAngry]

with all luck :)
I'll PM him, and when he gets a chance I'm sure he wouldn't mind

 

[beatle_bailey]

this is the most fun I have had on here yet ,, ,, Imagin having fun over a Avater ,,, ,,, Shows how easy it is to make this grumpy old man smile ,, ,,
:rofl: Beatle
PsS this is all I hane gotten done all day so far

 

[YoungAndAngry]

I'm just glad your smiling, lol, brightens my day

p.s. - Normally I'd be saying the same thing, being glued to the computer all day... but today thankfully I managed to get some over-due errands done :)

 

[beatle_bailey]

I don't know how many of you men out there have been brought up with the macho bull I was ,,,, ,,, , But I suspect there are way more than want to admit ,, or are all of you just way to proud to admit it ,, ,, Just think ,, oh my God I have feelings but do not know how too admit it or how to show them ,, Or still even worse let others see them ,, That would be a disgrace ,, I'll never let that happen,, all of that is such bull sh-- ,, if you want to grow and heal around here ,,, get ready for the ride of your life ,, ,,, ,,, for those of you who don't want to deal with this kind of FEELINGS then just hang on to your PTSD ,,

Now I know and have learned that my story is not the most tragic out there ,, ,, In fact I have the utmost respect for so many woman out there , It blows me away ,, ,,, ,, Having said that ,, ,, ,, when my PTSD Alcoholism AIDS and busted up body is on fire all at once ,, I don't have a problem letting others see just how deeply they or there story touches my heart ,, ,, And yes even will make me cry for them or how close what they shared feels just like or mimics what has happened in my live ,, ,,

I cracked and broke once before ,, 7yrs ago ,, Luckily I was in a safe place ,, ,, In an AA meeting ,, ,, ,, even this may bother others because I found help some place other than here or a shrink ,, even did it with no meds of any kind ,, this may not be recommended ,, and I'm not special for doing it that way ,,, ,, It was just what I had to do for me ...

I have been getting more and more shut down or open to those exact things that helped me before ,, Those feeling ,, Letting others see my emotions or simply letting them out at all ,, ,, you slam up those walls just like I was taught to as a boy,,

I will find a way to let this happen again {lettings all the feelings out } Because it had such a great effect on me ,, ,, ,, if I show a bit of compassion for others on this forum ,, Then so be it I'm human and proud of every feeling that I have ,, Simply because they are all mine and not masked by drugs or alcohol ,, They are very real ,,,, ,,, I will let my humanity shine bright and some times very loudly ,, ,, Beatle

 

[vcc123]

Amen, Beatle. :tongue:

 

[slhlilbit]

dont be so quick to stop as i did and im back

B.Bailey,
i felt the same way at first. you cant help anyone just you. you cant take on their problems . i did and i cryed alot. i got so cought up in trying to help everyone elce that it sliped right by me that they were there to help me too. i feel like there is alot of pain in this place but there is alot more love and concern than you know.
take care of you.:hello:
slhlilbit

 

[beatle_bailey]

don't worry slhlilbit not leaving

to tell the truth others pain in this forum is promting me to work harder on my own ,, ,, ,, I don't mind crying for them or for just how close there pain relates to mine ,,, ,, ,, But I do have fear of where and when the dam's will brake and every thing comes roaring out ,, ,, ,, ,, there is alot of good people in here , that help me ,,,, ,, and Thanks for your concern,,

you are right about helping others too ,, ,, all I try to do is say how I made it through a similar situation,, ,, ,, ,,Beatle