Just Crying

[Deleted member 28403]

Cant stop crying, my eyes burn because od it.

I'm just sad, too sad. Stuff coming down on me, not anyone's fault.

I dont know what to do. Trying to fall asleep but not managing. Just breakdown.

Going to korea at this point today, in a few hours i should be awake and on my way to the airport.
Feeling shit about some stiff, such as my father starting to have more serious symptoms of Alzheimer's, he's in his 50s, and at this point other than mixing everyones names, and forgetting a lot of stuff day to day, he is also forgetting stuff within a few hours. Seeing stuff for the first time multiple times in a day... :'( makes me feel shit, although as can be seen from older posts they've been shit to me
Also mildly triggered, trying to shut out voices with music, not working all too well.
Girlfriend cutting herself, randomly, and for some reason hating herself. She is aganist herself the most.
Just so tired of it all

I dont know what to do

 

[Ronin]

It takes a while of Alzheimer to get to that doesn't-recognize-anyone stage. & focus on what you have, what he has. Focus on getting what you can, the little things that are still left, not all those big things that are disappearing.

Have you tried kind talk to the voices? Kind self talk as responses to harsh criticism?

Your girlfriend's issues aren't yours to fix. You may be both very young, but you can both learn self care & adaptive behaviors soon, as opposed to maladaptive.

Focus on the flight; you can think of all of this once you're in the air & with a lot of time to kill.

 

[The Albatross]

Saelben, maybe dealing with the emotions now will clear the air for you for your trip? Not fun or timely and feeling like crap before a very long flight... well that's hard. But hoping that once you board the flight... you can feel some relief at least for your trip. Cashew is right about what's going on with your dad and your girlfriend you can't fix... at least when you're preparing to leave the country for a while?

Maybe on your trip, journal some thoughts in your quiet time. Being out and away from the both of them, you could get some insights?

Travel safe, and take good care, eh?

 

[Ronin]

Travel safe, and take good care, eh?

And this.

Darned, forgot the well wishes.

Safe journey, joyful stay, and equally safe and uncomplicated return, @Saelben.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Thank you