Sufferer Just Need To Check In

[gracious2]

have recently found this forum, and it's comforting at times to read from others who suffer from ptsd and other issues. i am just checking in today to say it was a hard day. got triggered at work and i have to tell myself that what a person or persons may remind me of, is not the same reality as now. in other words, i am no longer back there by myself, unable to defend myself against my mom and my brother. i have to say out loud that i may have been powerless back then, but i am not today. the first 19 years of my life were pretty horrific, and, as an adult i chose some really scary and abusive partners. it was until 10 years ago now, that i met my husband and we have an 8 year old daughter. my husband and i have a healthy relationship and he has made my world safe so that i can work on myself and pursue a journey to heal. i disassociate involuntarily which is basically how i survived, but i am trying to learn that i do have personal power. that i don't have to be afraid, that it wasn't my fault and even though they tried to break me, i am still here. thanks for being here.

 

[Nevermore]

Hi @gracious2 and welcome. I'm so glad you feel a sense of safety in the world now. Yes, learning to use your own personal power is so important!
Glad you're on the path to healing

 

[intothelight]

Welcome and I hope you find this forum a valuable tool in your recovery.

 

[The real me]

Hi, I am new to this, things have been really tough, I didn't believe I had issues from childhood until they were triggered, -and that's just the start of it. My therapist told me to read PTSD surviving to thriving I'm only 70 pages in and ........ I'm in awe.... hopefully with that and in here I can figure things out