Just The Thoughts In My Head

[CDee944]

CDee944
we've spoken in chat before.
i hope i've been he...

You have been very helpful Bumble, I greatly appreciate it.

 

[CDee944]

Today's mood in general is "F*#% THE WORLD!!"
I haven't been sleeping and when my day starts with people who want to just nit pick and bicker over stupid things it really makes me want to lose it.
I am trying to let it go but i can feel myself shaking in my own skin. I know it's because of raised male voices. Still set me off every time. I just want to crawl out of myself and run away.

 

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@CDee944 do you have a safe place? A safe person? If you've identified raised male voices as being triggers, then you need the coping tools necessary to put yourself first and take control of your situation. Easier said than done. I know.

Sounds like others are making the choices for you. That doesn't have to be. You can choose to take control your thoughts, actions, responses - and the environment you're finding yourself in. Add your voice! ... go for it! Be strong and take the plunge!

 

[CDee944]

I do have a safe place. It was in a meeting at work. Not to much I can do, but I have the same seat every meeting, closest to the door. That makes me feel better.
It wasn't like I was physically threatened or anything at all. I usually notice it once I get back to my office that I'm just a mess inside and it takes me all day to "get it together".
But if I can't calm down in my office I do have a quiet room I can go to that is away from others. And my bosses are both very understanding.