Just Woke Up From Nightmare That Makes Me Want To Do "the Dog Thing"

[shimmerz]

I dont like that word 'immediately'; its making me feel like i need to faster than i can go, and its why (i think) it came back.

I am sorry. Are you saying that I made you reactive? This is actually an illegal act. Felony type in some states. That makes this a problem that needs to be immediately addressed.

Agree with Chava. You keep saying that you can stop behaviours but give all sorts of double speak (I can but don't want to stop it) when hearing alternatives from others in this case. You either want to stop it or you don't. Or you state that this is bigger than you and that you need help (professional) with it. Otherwise it is my opinion that you are just spinning you, your dog and us in circles over this.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

This is actually an illegal act.

No its not, i looked that up and thats what made one member think i didnt want to stop when i do, i was just stating a fact.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I am sorry. Are you saying that I made you reactive? This is actually an illegal act. Felony type in...

Ive been given great advise here that i will do my best to put into action

 

[shimmerz]

I am out.

 

[Rumors]

No its not, i looked that up and thats what made one member think i didnt want to stop when i...

Actually, it is... Beware of what you look up on google as it may or may not be factual.

"Just woke up from a nightmare that makes me want to do the dog thing"

This was the title of your thread. The responses here address specific ways you could resist doing that. You want to dismiss them bc they aren't what you want to hear. There is no healing in that. If you want people to only read and not offer helpful techniques then don't post that you are considering having oral sex with your dog and that you really don't want to. The people here are trying their damnedest to help you find alternative ways to deal with hurtful things.

This is NOT a judgment. If you choose to take it that way, that is on you, however you NEED to be in touch with a therapist and more than group therapy. Having oral sex with a dog is considered animal abuse and is now punishable by law. I would hate for you to have to go through that. You have been through enough, but you need more help than what you are getting. Now.

Please, please reach out to your therapist today and ask him or her to see you and let them know what is going on. Cutting yourself down there is not ok either. I am so sorry that you had to go through that as a kid. It is awful and I hope the bastards that did that to you rot in hell. Really!!! However, what others have said about being responsible for your actions now is so very true. You know you have a responsibility to yourself to get help. You are worthy of help and you deserve to have help.

Feeling the need to have sex with your dog is like an alcoholic needing to take a drink. It is hard and it is scary but if you can get real with yourself, I promise the people here will walk that journey with you... You have to get real though. You can't continue to post that you are thinking about doing things then dismiss the very options that would keep you from doing such things. Acknowledge that you are powerless and please get some help...more than you are getting now.

I care a great deal about what happens to you. I so desperately want to hunt the bastards down that did that to you and kick the shit out of them. No one should ever have to feel like you did then or do now.

Please repeat to yourself that you are worthy of love and happiness. I promise you it does NOT have to be this way. I want you to know that you CAN make good choices and you can feel better and you don't have to have this looming desperation about when the wheels are going to fall off the bus.

Please, please see this post as what it is intended. I am not judging you for wanting/needing to have sex with your dog..period...I am however offering you the option and idea that there is MORE YOU CAN DO FOR YOURSELF in your healing. Seek it out and work at getting more support for yourself today. You deserve that...you need that...

Best wishes... Please check in as the day progresses.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Actually, it is... Beware of what you look up on google as it may or may not be factual.

"Just woke up f...

First, NOT JUSTIFYING IT, but i looked up the law in MY state, having intercourse with an animal is illegal, having them preform oral on you (due to not forcing them) isnt. I can copy and paste the state law if you want.

Second, my therapist knows about it and has known for a long time, we dont talk about specific rituals as they are ALL done for the same reason.

Third, i only discribed it as an addiction because thats how it feels; but rituals are WAY more than an addiction. No more is being said about that.

Fourth, i HAVE taken some good ideas from here, some i even reposted about in here AND put one into action last night.

Fifth, I do have professional help and have had for almost 7 yrs. And my insurence will not pay for anyrhing else and i do have to WORK, unless you'd like to pay my bills and my therapy.

Sixth, thank you for caring!

 

[Rumors]

@lostforgottensoul
I am so sorry that you cannot take what was written and use it as a tool to achieve a goal, but instead feel the need to justify your thoughts and actions. That is probably the most unhealthy form of survival and the hardest cycle to break. I will keep you in my thoughts but much like others here, I am afraid I will no longer participate in conversation only because I have nothing to offer and I can't listen to immensely dangerous and self destructive behavior patterns and justifies such pattern because of past abuse. You have a choice because you know that it is wrong. Rituals or not, it is wrong. Oral sex is considered sex and is against the law. Period. It is wrong and from the title of your post and content you were considering having oral sex with your dog. That justifies needing immediate help. You do have a choice. Choosing not to seek immediate help is a bad choice.

I know you don't want to hear that you need immediate help and I am sure it is unsettling, however that behavior is not only illegal but it shows a pattern of mental illness that requires medical attention.
Please get help. More than what you are receiving. You are in serious denial and are very sick. Go to the hospital if you must but get some help. Call your therapist and see what else they can offer but get some help.
Best wishes.

 

[Queen Boudica]

A ritual is it really a ritual, abusing a dog? I think you are using that as an excuse: 'This is a ritual therefore I cannot stop.' I look after the dog well therefore I am not abusing that dog because I am not forcing it to do anything. Actually it is abuse. Abuse does not have to be forced. You look after that dog it needs you for food and love and it will do anything for you, including this. Just like a child would. That excuse I am not forcing it to do it so it isn't abuse, that is not right. And the fact that you use emotional manipulation to threaten if anyone says this is wrong you will hurt yourself shows me it is even more wrong.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

In addtion to my above post; since no one knows what State i live in and would to like to keep it that way; again posted as fact of my current state law, NOT a justification; i will copy and paste this w/o posting the link: "if a person made sexual contact with an animal's mouth, but was not "penetrating" the mouth, such contact may technically be permitted under the current law."

Additionally, please stop making assumptions. I was asked to not assume on other's post and would like the same respect. 1st assumtion, my state law is the same as yours, not true and no one here even know where i live other than the east coast of the US, which makes up A TON of states and 2nd assumption, im not listening or dont want to change this. If that were true i A) wouldnt of made this known here and B) wouldnt of taken the best idea and put it into action the first time again that i felt the need to preform the ritual.

And i say again, i cannot be hospitalized, I...MUST....WORK!

 

[lostforgottensoul]

This is a ritual therefore I cannot stop.

Please tell me ANYWHERE on this forum that i said i cannot stop. Anywhere.

What i said is, it is much harder than an addiction, have never ever ever stated the i cannot nor did i state i dont want to.

And i think last night shows i can and want to.

 

[Queen Boudica]

you said if you get rid of the dog you will just go out and do it with the neighbours dog.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

you said if you get rid of the dog you will just go out and do it with the neighbours dog.

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Which is something i have done.

Again, assuming.