Hey everyone. Uh… I have been told by my family that I was too fat and unable to get anyone. Even when I was fat in high school, people still thought I was cute. But… since my family really did a number on my confidence, I just… have a hard time with believing that I’m worthy of anything. Romantic or not. I’m in college and now and every time I see a couple I get sad. Because I’ve been told I’m too ugly to get anyone.
But… it is starting to change. Even if just a bit.
First off, I realize that my family is just… evil. The other thing is that… I feel like that anger is driving me forward. Going to the gym. Bettering MYSELF in ways that are tangible to me. I just really wonder if I can even get anyone now. I’ve lost a ton of weight and now and working out 5 days a week. Still… I just wonder if I have to be “completely healed” of my own past trauma with family just to be “worthy” now.
But… it is starting to change. Even if just a bit.
First off, I realize that my family is just… evil. The other thing is that… I feel like that anger is driving me forward. Going to the gym. Bettering MYSELF in ways that are tangible to me. I just really wonder if I can even get anyone now. I’ve lost a ton of weight and now and working out 5 days a week. Still… I just wonder if I have to be “completely healed” of my own past trauma with family just to be “worthy” now.
