I think I am looking for a space to write/clarify my thoughts and get some feedback. I probably need to leave my current psychiatrist but as a trauma survivor I have so many irrational fears that the thought of making this break sends me into anxiety.
I have seen this doctor for 10 months. I've had negative reactions to his medication suggestions so I am on the same meds as when I arrived. I have a BiPolar diagnosis of over 30yrs and the trauma from my accident (run over by a truck while biking 2015) was expanded to CPTSD. I am on disability.
The progress I've made has been through my talk therapist, acupuncturist, myofascial release practitioner.
This doctor didn't promptly file claims to Medicare for my visits. He told me I needed to give him a $50 copay. Once he finally filed, he was paid in full the Medicare assignment through Medicare and my wraparound. I pointed out at that point that he owed me the $350 overpayment. Since then he switched an appt to a Saturday (I couldn't attend obviously as a Sabbath observer). Rescheduled and didn't show up last night. He has now rescheduled that for 2wks. I have enough refills to cover another month.
I know part of this is my illness stopping me from finding someone else. I'm tired of retelling my story to yet another psychiatrist from having a long mental health history. I'm fearful about leaving and the thought that he could affect my disability. If I leave, I will never see that money. Just thinking about this situation gives me heart pounding anxiety and puts me in that place where everything is my fault and I make wrong choices (i.e. I made a choice to go biking and I was hit by a truck).
Thoughts.
I have seen this doctor for 10 months. I've had negative reactions to his medication suggestions so I am on the same meds as when I arrived. I have a BiPolar diagnosis of over 30yrs and the trauma from my accident (run over by a truck while biking 2015) was expanded to CPTSD. I am on disability.
The progress I've made has been through my talk therapist, acupuncturist, myofascial release practitioner.
This doctor didn't promptly file claims to Medicare for my visits. He told me I needed to give him a $50 copay. Once he finally filed, he was paid in full the Medicare assignment through Medicare and my wraparound. I pointed out at that point that he owed me the $350 overpayment. Since then he switched an appt to a Saturday (I couldn't attend obviously as a Sabbath observer). Rescheduled and didn't show up last night. He has now rescheduled that for 2wks. I have enough refills to cover another month.
I know part of this is my illness stopping me from finding someone else. I'm tired of retelling my story to yet another psychiatrist from having a long mental health history. I'm fearful about leaving and the thought that he could affect my disability. If I leave, I will never see that money. Just thinking about this situation gives me heart pounding anxiety and puts me in that place where everything is my fault and I make wrong choices (i.e. I made a choice to go biking and I was hit by a truck).
Thoughts.
