Oh God! I've done it. Finally forced myself to get back into the pool. I've had to do it, my body was screaming at me every day that it was neglected and therefore punishing me. Pain in my joints, sore back, stiff neck and a feeling like crap.
But my brain wanted to veg on the couch, feed my face, stay in bed, step over my motivation and snuggle into copious amounts of procrastination convincing me that tomorrow would be better to go start my swimming again.
It's so hard re-starting, partly because I was really kicking goals when I stopped, I had done the hard yards, forced myself to go every day, built up to some good distances and my body and mind might have been agreeing with each other.
So it's been five whole months of no swimming now. Too long. Well four of those months I had no choice about going but the last month has been just me... no real reason whatsoever.
Earlier today, whilst curled up on my couch, because it was cloudy outside :rolleyes: I watched a Youtube video on motivation, procrastination, feelings and forcing ourselves to just get the hell over ourselves! Yess!!
I heard me and my weak justifications for not doing anything at all in almost every minute.
The video related exactly how and why I had psyched myself out of not doing exercise, as if I really had no idea, but I did, but getting reminded was very good for me.
I took a long moment and decided to get off the couch and do it. I had no reason not to go, the pool would be deserted because who in their right mind is swimming on a Sunday evening??? Me!
My muscle tone is zilch. I'm so seriously out of shape in the literal sense it's embarrassing.
I did 6 x 50 metre laps with about 10 second breaks btwn each lap. Cardio fitness... what?? My breathing was all over the shop. Arms felt heavy and slow. Even my stroke/breathing rate is bad.
I floated around for a while and daydreamed afterwards. Did some somersaults, underwater swimming and relaxed.
I've done it. Started again. Wrote it in my diary 6 lonely laps... on the way to 50. I have no excuse for stopping now. In a month to six weeks it will be a habit and I will love it, my body will expect it - no problems... can't wait. hmmm. 41 days to go!