Kaylove498
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I'm new to this and I suffer from severe anxiety. I have a million questions and just looking for support or possible answers.
I've been through somethings in my life in the last year. My mother n law had a great attack while it was just me and her I began CPR on her we've always been very close. The good news she made it but naturally I'm scared she'll pass.
A few months later we lost her son my brother n law who I was very close to to cancer and I was there physically saw him before he passed and was with him through the hardships before his passing.
Me and my spouse had a rough split soon after due to stress and we have gotten back together I actually was the one to decide to leave for a few weeks being that I want thinking clearly.
I moved back in with my mother for a month and things were rough. Arguments and stress overload.I began to dissociate so I started therapy and if course there were in betweens to all of those things.
My question is lately I've been feeling off - things look strange people feel unfamiliar - which I know is because of the depersonalization and derealization. My problem is at times like tonight for example I'll look around and feel confused as if I'm in my childhood home again visually I know I'm not but mentally I feel as though I'm in a dream and that when I'll wake up I'll be back in my child hood bedroom which I know isn't mine anyone we moved several times after I turned 11. I've heard of flashbacks but this doesn't seem like a flashback being that I know where I'm at it's more of a confused feeling like how do I know certain people or why am I here.
I have memories of all the years that have passed but it's getting to the point where I'm terrified It feels like I'm going insane. Can anyone please explain what this could be and possibly give reassurance that I'm not losing it??
I've been through somethings in my life in the last year. My mother n law had a great attack while it was just me and her I began CPR on her we've always been very close. The good news she made it but naturally I'm scared she'll pass.
A few months later we lost her son my brother n law who I was very close to to cancer and I was there physically saw him before he passed and was with him through the hardships before his passing.
Me and my spouse had a rough split soon after due to stress and we have gotten back together I actually was the one to decide to leave for a few weeks being that I want thinking clearly.
I moved back in with my mother for a month and things were rough. Arguments and stress overload.I began to dissociate so I started therapy and if course there were in betweens to all of those things.
My question is lately I've been feeling off - things look strange people feel unfamiliar - which I know is because of the depersonalization and derealization. My problem is at times like tonight for example I'll look around and feel confused as if I'm in my childhood home again visually I know I'm not but mentally I feel as though I'm in a dream and that when I'll wake up I'll be back in my child hood bedroom which I know isn't mine anyone we moved several times after I turned 11. I've heard of flashbacks but this doesn't seem like a flashback being that I know where I'm at it's more of a confused feeling like how do I know certain people or why am I here.
I have memories of all the years that have passed but it's getting to the point where I'm terrified It feels like I'm going insane. Can anyone please explain what this could be and possibly give reassurance that I'm not losing it??