You aren't worthless, but I know there is really no way of convincing you of that right now. I know that because I am often in that place of feeling like I don't deserve to exist, and I know that my ability to see reality in those moments is greatly limited.(Although I think I am seeing things the way they really are.) I feel like I hypocrite telling you to hang on, because I hate it when people say that to me, but I also know deep down that they are right. I feel angry that they are right, but that doesn't change the fact that we have no idea what the future holds and if we kill ourselves, we will lose any chance of finding out. I know it is unfair to ask you to continue living right now when you are in so much pain, but I am going to ask you anyway. If there is anything you have not tried, any avenue of help, please consider trying it before making a final decision. You have nothing to lose by trying at this point. Please wait.