Meeting With Psychiatrist For First Time

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

I have only met with psychiatrists as part of partial or inpatient treatment or in the ER. I have never actually met with one other than that. I have my first appointment with one today. I tried really hard to find a female, but couldn't so I am meeting with a male- that's anxiety number one.

I have yet to mention to him that I dissociative identity disorder and I am scared that when I mention it, he will be a non-believer in which case I will need to start my search for a psychiatrist all over again and it's already taken 3 months. That's anxiety number 2.

I also have probably a hundred other miscellaneous anxieties running around in my brain right now ranging from where will I park to what if I end up in the hospital (not that I plan on telling him anything that would cause him to put me there, but still I worry). I need to figure out how to occupy myself for the next 45 minutes until it is time to leave because dwelling on this is not helpful.

 

[Friday]

Are you seeing him for therapy or for medication management?

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

My main goal is medication management, but I have no idea how much detail he want to know about me.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Hopefully it's been fine for you? What did it go like? Are you feeling better after the session, relieved some of the anxieties?

Sending hugs if you accept.

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

Since I already started this thread, I am going to just put this here for now- that was a horrible appointment. I want to say more, but I don't have the time at the moment other than to say that I was switch-y and crying (when I could) and spent a half hour on the phone with therapist and longer than that sitting in a parking lot because I couldn't drive home in the state I was in.

 

[Biz]

Sorry to hear that @JEKBreatheandBelieve . I hope that your desire to have help puts out the energy to the universe to send you someone who doesn't suck and quickly.

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

Thank you, @Biz . I hope so, too. I am so glad that I have such a wonderful therapist though who can help me trust me.

 

[Queen Boudica]

Good thing is yes you have a therapist who helps you trust you and you were also able to recognise the psychiatrist sucked and trust yourself and know to get the right support. Trust yourself. Sounds like you have found a good therapist so that gives you a firm grounding in what to look for with a psychiatrist too. Only accept good people in our lives applies to mental health professionals too. You did well. You went, it was a horrible experience but you knew it was wrong and got support.