Memory

[doglover]

((((((Fernbrake))))))
Does your supervisor know those guys watch adult content at work???!!

What an awful work environment. I think that environment makes all the difference. I am so glad I left my last job. The boss thrived on stressing out and overworking his workers. Not good.

I hope you continue to enjoy the benefits of a less stressful position.

Oh yeah, and I also have days where I will be able to talk about my childhood from memory. Much of it is little details I don't remember myself, things other people have said happened. Some I do remember. I have to be in the right mood to have that kind of conversation - I'm not talking about trauma here either. (Wow my body just got really tense there.) Just the 'normal' stuff that can come up in conversations sometimes. Some days I can flow in that kind of chat, other days I can't.

 

[Fernbrake]

Hi Doglover. Yes, I told the supervisor, twice before she did anything. Finally they just moved me to keep me quiet, which I dont care, thats all I wanted anyway. Because we were in an secured room they had more freedom than most. I'm glad you left your last job too. How awful having a manager like that! I really don't get how some people can be so evil.

It seems like my memory sneaks up on me when I'm not looking lol. If I try to remember, forget it, but sometimes random thoughts come out. I'm sure if my brain wants to remember it will, its just kinda frustrating trying to understand it all.

 

[Cindy532]

Hi Cindy.

Two years ago I was having panic attacks at work. I would have to go out to my car and recover each time. I ended up taking an anti-depressant but started drinking heavily. Of course I got even more depressed and gained weight.

Fernbrake, it seems to me you have a good handle on what your PTSD is about. I think the stuff at work could definately be a contributing factor. It sounds like an awful thing to be dealing with. And it does sound very likely it has to do with your dad sexually abusing you during your childhood. Like me SIGH you might have to wait for it to come up if you're therapist doesn't think it's a good idea to uncover it. No I don't think it's weird that you think I was like this when I was little but you don't remember. Brains are so funny that way. You know something is wrong but you don't know what, you don't realize your own brain could be the culprit. Your brain makes excuses for itself. You have a thought like that about your childhood and dismiss it, or think you remember you went to this place but you don't remember it at all and it's weird but you push it out of your head and think maybe it wasn't memorable or nothing happened. Your brain gets you to believe whatever it wants to protect you.

 

[PTSDtheBlackHole]

Journaling has been a tremendous help. Memory problems are significant and affects verbal communication. I get stuck on words. Although the word is in my head and I want to say it--I end up saying something completely different or I simply can't find the word I want to say. When PTSD is real bad, I need to reread things over and over again. It is extremely frustrating. I need to definitely write things down on paper to recall what I need to do or buy at the grocery store. etc.... I have lost my car in the parking lot several times. So now I try to park in same aisle no matter how far I have to walk. Walking is therapeutic anyways.

 

[Ladyghosthunter]

I am having severe memory issues and worse yet, I can't listen well as if I'm tuning out. Is this disassociation? I mean, I couldn't remember a person's name last night and it was terrible. However, in saying that, I feel that it's always pointed out to me and I don't understand WHY I don't listen and why I'm having suddenly short term memory issues.

Last week, I was in the ER because of chest pains. I found out I have costocolitis due to stress and everyone seems to be backing away from me and just being rude. I want to just run away, change my name and live the life of Jimmy Buffett.

You know?

 

[holdenmonty]

I know it has been almost a year but I am in the same boat. My memory sucks it has never been amazing but since my ptsd it has been horrible. I was even miss diagnosed initially as having ADD because my memory is so horrible and when there is a lot going on I have a really hard time focusing. The next time I have my appointment with my psychologist I'm going to talk to him about it.

 

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Please let us know what he said :)

 

[holdenmonty]

I did talk to my therapist about it at my appointment today that funny enough I almost forgot about. And she told me about some military people at her office that tends to forget simple things as well. It didn't give me much comfort but one of the individuals she mentioned is my psychologist so it helped a little

 

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