PreciousChild
MyPTSD Pro
I was talking to my T the other day, and it's funny because once in while I have to qualify what I'm about to say by saying, "Humans seem to need X..." I feel like an alien sometimes trying to figure humans out, and I'm not sure if it's just a part of my personality, the ptsd, or what.
One example of this is I have never understood "moral support." If someone offers to go with me to something most people find sad or hard, I think to myself, 'why?' I have to remind myself that humans generally find company comforting during difficult times. I've been through some severely hard times in my adult life, all of which I endured and got through on my own. I don't see how getting "moral support" would have changed anything. Yet, deep down, I feel like this is a symptom of my upbringing in a cruel environment. I feel like there's a thick callous somewhere in my soul where I should be letting people in. I can offer others moral support but only because I can see that the other person finds it helpful. I personally cannot understand what a human gets from it.
I do feel needy when I get triggered and I want safety from feeling endangered. During those times, I need lots of reassurance that I'm not in danger of being abandoned. Is that my standard? As long as I'm not feeling like I'm dying or agandoned, what do I have to complain about? Is anyone else stumped by "moral support"?
One example of this is I have never understood "moral support." If someone offers to go with me to something most people find sad or hard, I think to myself, 'why?' I have to remind myself that humans generally find company comforting during difficult times. I've been through some severely hard times in my adult life, all of which I endured and got through on my own. I don't see how getting "moral support" would have changed anything. Yet, deep down, I feel like this is a symptom of my upbringing in a cruel environment. I feel like there's a thick callous somewhere in my soul where I should be letting people in. I can offer others moral support but only because I can see that the other person finds it helpful. I personally cannot understand what a human gets from it.
I do feel needy when I get triggered and I want safety from feeling endangered. During those times, I need lots of reassurance that I'm not in danger of being abandoned. Is that my standard? As long as I'm not feeling like I'm dying or agandoned, what do I have to complain about? Is anyone else stumped by "moral support"?