Mortifying Tuesday Night...

[Queen Boudica]

Yep. The 2nd class citizen status, is something, we need to start fighting against. The girl who is taking up a legal case with the insurance companies who refused to pay her travel insurance claim, she's got the right idea.

Don't worry about them. They can only do something if they smell suicidal thoughts I reckon. The hospitals are too full anyway. But tread with care. I wonder what kind of person does that job? Caring or controlling? Be interested to know what they turn out to be like. They may just offer you services or support (am I dreaming???).

 

[Mammo]

Yep. The 2nd class citizen status, is something, we need to start fighting against. The girl who is taking...

This is what frightens me...the reason I was in hospital was because they found a note expressing such sentiments ("si"). Things are still bad for me...not to *that* point...but I am so frightened that I need only say one thing, make one mistake...and I'm taken away.

 

[Queen Boudica]

I don't think that will happen. Just don't mention anything about SI. Just say you wrote that a few months ago when you were down. Have you seen your psychologist since then? Say you talked about it with your psychologist. Do you take meds? Say you are on meds and have improved. They wouldn't have let you out so soon if they thought you were at risk. I think the mental health team are there to offer support. Did they actually say they are going to check-up if you are going to see your T?

 

[Mammo]

I don't think that will happen. Just don't mention anything about SI. Just say you wrote that a few months...

Hi, yes that is what I told them...I don't take meds (and surprisingly they didn't seem pushy about that). But yes, they said these people would contact me to ensure that I am following up and going in the right direction (as defined by them).

Thanks for replying.

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

@Mammo, I know I don't live in Australia, but I wanted to reply. After being in the ER for suicidal ideation here in the US, I was placed on the "check up on" list of a community mental health team. Their job was just to check in and see how I was doing and what they could do to help. Their goal was to help me with my needs in the least restrictive way and I don't know if yours will have the same philosophy. However, one thing that they did well, is help me connect to services or be willing to. That might be one way you can talk about the therapist issue. It isn't fair to make you go to a therapist if cost is a barrier to that. Anyway, I hope that things work out for you and that this team who calls doesn't give you a hard time.

 

[Mammo]

hi everyone,
they did turn up, on Wednesday evening about 8pm. No call in advance - they literally turned up at my house (!!) which I find quite disturbing.
They did seem nice. I had to omit certain things. They said they will speak to my T when he's back in Sydney on monday and see if he's happy to leave me in his hands. Potential issue is the fact that I omitted quite a lot of my history to the hospital staff - whereas my T knows pretty much everything. I hope they don't realise that.

I tried to go to work yesterday. I sat in the bathroom crying and panicking at work. I hate feeling on edge, terrified at what these people may/may not do to me. I hate the fact that I repeatedly am catching my breath.

I spoke to my friend. I am in a catch-22 situation whereby I know i'm not okay, and I don't like lying to people, but I cannot tell people the truth, because I know what they will do.

 

[Queen Boudica]

hi everyone,
they did turn up, on Wednesday evening about 8pm. No call in advance - they literally turned...

That's awful who just turns up at 8 pm unannounced? Disrespectful. I would not answer the door just rude. No one expects people at 8 pm. Didn't realise your in Sydney. Which hospital is it? Just in case I have to deal with them. Funny I always think one day there will be someone on here who I bump into at my psychologist. My psych just coming back from trip too ! You don't have to tell them everything but psychologist might but I think if it was something you wrote ages ago he would have sense to see that.

 

[Mammo]

Yeah very rude, though somehow I don't think they give a flying. If I hadn't opened the door, or told them to go away, most likely they'd just call the cops back. So no choice really.

It's St Vincents in Darlinghurst. I can only imagine what the inpatient unit is like there. Most likely a really violent version of 'one flew over the cuckoos nest.'

My T seems quite sensible, so I can only hope that things don't get out of hand.

I hate not being in control, especially when I don't actually think there's anything these people can do to help.

 

[Queen Boudica]

Yes, think most of them, have some kind of power trip going on. Look how good I am doing, without even getting it at all. You want people with lived in experience to be in these jobs who get it. That changing minds program that woman on there who was so determined she'd get that boy to see how 'sick' he was. Yer right, she should turn the mirror and look at her condescending, egotistical self