Killashandra
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I probably shouldn't have but I watched Once were Warriors this morning again,
It has so many triggers for me and I know it's pushing my limits, why I watched it though was to feel.
When Gracie dies and becasue of why she died I cry, of course and it brings feelings up that aren't pleasant,
But watching Jake the Muss take out that Bastard made me cry even more. Not because he died but becasue even though that family was dysfunctional to say the least, at least they confronted the perp and did justice for thier daughter. Something my mother never done. I feel the loss and the loss of my self worth during this part, the knowledge that there is only me to take care of myself and I'm not a fighter. I cower and hide. It also showed me that my husband as much as I have been cruel to treat him in certain ways he HAS protected me. More than any other person that is close to me.
I'm not ashamed to admit I bawled my eyes out for the first time in ages.. for me. It's bitter sweet though I feel a bit better but I know I have to do something that scares me now. I need to talk openly with my husband. And let him know how much I care and love him but why I find it difficult.
Has anyone else have a movie that resonates deeply within them?
It has so many triggers for me and I know it's pushing my limits, why I watched it though was to feel.
When Gracie dies and becasue of why she died I cry, of course and it brings feelings up that aren't pleasant,
But watching Jake the Muss take out that Bastard made me cry even more. Not because he died but becasue even though that family was dysfunctional to say the least, at least they confronted the perp and did justice for thier daughter. Something my mother never done. I feel the loss and the loss of my self worth during this part, the knowledge that there is only me to take care of myself and I'm not a fighter. I cower and hide. It also showed me that my husband as much as I have been cruel to treat him in certain ways he HAS protected me. More than any other person that is close to me.
I'm not ashamed to admit I bawled my eyes out for the first time in ages.. for me. It's bitter sweet though I feel a bit better but I know I have to do something that scares me now. I need to talk openly with my husband. And let him know how much I care and love him but why I find it difficult.
Has anyone else have a movie that resonates deeply within them?