My Abuser In Court

[2quilt]

Your courage inspires me to keep living. You did what I was not able to do. Now's the time to be gentle with yourself; you have done nothing wrong and you are stronger than you think you are. You will speak for hundreds of innocents who can't speak for themselves. You are my hero!

 

[freya]

Harrywtgn, I am deeply impressed with your courage. Reading your posts gives me goose bumps. I can imagine this must be so scary for you. I'm so glad you are taking this step and that this way, other boys may be spared what you went through.

Best of luck, and very high regards, Freya

 

[dharmaBum]

Hang in there! I know from experience that every layer of the court process can be a help or a hindrance. Hopefully you feel strength in the fact that other people who were victimized have come forward as well.

 

[heather q]

I have to say thank you for your strength, and for doing something that I was unable to do, this shows tremendous courage and I encourage you to keep going. I wish I'd had the confidence and that I'd felt that I had the right to stand up to the abusers.

I appreciate you telling your story, maybe I can gain from you, I think I'm still in denial, I didn't know that I had a right not to be abused, I thought it was my fault. I was also too afraid of what would happen next.

So thank you for doing the right thing.

Heather

 

[IndigoCharm]

It is very brave of you to go through with this. I know it's going to be hard, but you are not alone, and it sounds like they have evidence against him. You will be doing a wonderful thing. Good luck! *big hug*

 

[Jestadud]

Well done my friend.
For every wrong done that you face up to add 6 inches to your height!
This is not a person who could stand up to you , this is a person who preys on the vulnerable.
You are a hero for standing up against such a low life.
I commend you for protecting those such as the boy you were.
The world needs people like you!
Jesta

 

[teejaye]

I agree with everyone here wholeheartedly. I'm anxious to hear how your day in court goes for you.

As I was reading your original post, I wondered if there was a way for you to symbolically grieve for the little boy who was hurt while acknowledging the strong man you have become today. So that when you go into the court room you can go in as the strong man looking out for the boy who experienced an injustice. I'm not sure if there is something you can take in there with you, like something small that can fit in a pocket or something that can be worn, that symbolizes that ... but I feel like a tangible reminder would help.

You are a brave and powerful person! I am rooting for you.

 

[justme4]

I am amazed at your courage! What you are doing takes an astronomical amout of emotional fortitude. Being the parent of boys I thank you from the bottom of my heart for what you are doing.

 

[harrywgtn]

Update
Will he has been to court twice now and has entered no plea each time. The first time i sat across the road from the court and watched him go in , i started shaking really badly and it was just crazy feelings.
When he come out of court the media where waiting and a photographer jumped out and took pics of him and he was in our paper with a photo.
The second time he went to court i went in with a support person and watched him stand up and plead nothing as another person has come forward with complaints so we are now at 7 people.
It was unreal seeing him in court , he looks so old now but still very scary to me.
I was for a while feeling guilty for sending him to court and recking his life but what has helped me is the fact that he is not pleading guilty so he does not really like me then.
So we now have to wait another 3 weeks untill he appears again.
Depp Breaths and ill be alright

 

[harrywgtn]

I also just feel like crying most of the time when i think about. Its amazing how it affects you so much after so many years

 

[dharmaBum]

I had this fragmented dream last night about how I have recently been involved in court activity regarding a period of rape and sexual exploitation at the hands of a textbook predatory pedophile (it ended 20 years ago). In the dream when people were mentioning or referring to the childhood assaults, I felt strangely confused and overwhelmed like, "...you want me to think about that? That was a long time ago!" I was sad and also felt like it was a way distant past nothingness at the same time.

 

[heather q]

I felt strangely confused and overwhelmed like, "...you want me to think about that? That was a long time ago!" I was sad and also felt like it was a way distant past nothingness at the same time.

I have similiar experiences when I'm talking to the T about the rapes that happend to me, sometimes it's as if it never was, it feels weird, it's as if I go somewhere else. I know the recent ones happend but when I think or talk about them, I feel like I'm losing it, it feels like it's all getting jumbled up, it feels scary as well and I don't know what that is about except that I still have shame about them and guilt about talking about them.

Heather