I'm so sorry for what you're feeling, @AnnieMae. Betrayal and manipulation can be crazy-making.Focusing is really hard. I was completely manipulated and lied about. This is so unreal, but real. The stress that this causes me is so bad my right arm is going numb. I know it’s all psycho somatic, but damn if it isn’t hard to stop. All the way from my shoulder to my hand. It is awful lol. I feel like such a dumbass for having to be validated on my emotions. I was not like this before. I will say I am dumb and don’t understand people at all anymore.
I get intense physical manifestations of my anxiety too. Sometimes it can be debilitating.
It's so frustrating and disorienting when abuse strikes at our very character, the essence of who we are.