My Sexual Assault Trauma.

[moose]

I have read the rules and watched the video. I firstly wish to apologise, my writing skills are not as good as they used to be. I will do my best to make this as easy to understand as possible.
In 2005 is was raped by three men, while on a night out. I left my friends and was walking home, was attacked and well, I wen't through nearly an hour of hell. Up until a few weeks ago, I have told nobody. Managed to speak to my Doctor, who put me on Beta blockers, to help with the 'fight or flight' response.

Six years down the line, I am here typing an introduction, sometimes I get many flashbacks in a day. I have severe problems going out, feeling everyone is looking straight through me. Often I have to come back home running. I know I need help, that is why I came here. Am to start Counselling next Monday.

Sleeping is so hard for me. I am lucky if I get three hours a night. Am scared to sleep in fear of my demons will come and get me. It took me a lot to sign up today, but I had to.

Thank you for reading.

Moose.

 

[amethist]

Hi Moose

Welcome to the forum.

For your first post this is well written, so you have nothing to worry about. You will soon feel more confidant, reading and posting will help you keep going.

There are many members on here who will be able to relate to all you have been through. They will offer support as you move forward.

Good luck with the counseling. Do as you are doing here, taking it slowly, taking baby steps, it will get you further on your path of healing, than trying to rush it all in one go.

Amethist

 

[cherryblossom]

Hello Moose

Welcome to the forum. Well done for joining and taking the first steps, by writing your introduction post. By the way, your writing looks fine to me - rules are there and need to be followed, but no one expects perfection

There is loads of great advice and information here. And plenty of people who understand what you are going through.

You would also be very welcome to join 'us' on our sister site - Survive sexual assault - see the link at the end of this post.

It's good to hear you are starting therapy - another brave step. Sometimes the time just arrives when it is 'right' for us to learn how to heal. It sounds like you a doing all the right things. Hang in there. Things can and will get better - it takes time, hard work and patience. Take care of yourself.

CB

 

[moose]

Thank you. Amethist, Cherryblossom. Means a lot to me for your replies. Was paranoid I would not get a reply. Was so hard for me to say which i did. Was expecting laughs or judgement. I did not get that. I will be more active on this forum, just need some time.

Thank you again.

Moose.

 

[amethist]

No one will ever laugh at you or judge you on here moose.

We are all in the same boat, whether sufferer or supporter, makes no difference. Take as much time as you need, no one will push you.

Amethist

 

[cherryblossom]

I agree - no-one is here to judge you. And you should take as much time as you need. Have a good read around the forum in particular [DLMURL="http://www.ptsdforum.org/c/forums/articles.52/"]articles[/DLMURL] and [DLMURL="http://www.ptsdforum.org/c/wiki/special/pages"]wiki[/DLMURL]. But just reading the general forums will show you the type of support and responses you can expect from posting a new thread. All good

 

[intothelight]

Hi Moose,

Welcome to the Forum.

Deb

 

[way_back_when]

Welcome, Moose.
Nice to meet you. Link Removed

WBW

 

[blueangel371115]

Welcome,
No judgements here. We are all caring, really awesome people. Here with open hearts and ears.

 

[tillie]

Hi Moose, I am also new to the forum. Know that you are not alone, no one will judge you only listen and try to help.

 

[moose]

Thank you all for your kind words.

Moose.